My Dreamland

2009-10-26T13:51:00.002+08:00

Hey ppl~

I've changed my blog to http://maybeloh.blogspot.com, pls visit it when u r free! :)

2009-10-05T21:04:00.002+08:00

OMG I JUZ GAVE CM A HAIRCUT!!!

We saw this haircut kit and we tot we could just try it for fun.. and it onli cost $12? so we bot it.. but it turned out to be realli realli difficult!! we spent like 3 hrs cutting n trimming his hair! in the end, the front looks alright.. but the back seems uneven.. but aiya boys' hair grow v fast.. haha.. shd be ok ba...

Anyway.. havent been blogging for a long time.. nowadays.. i seem to be doing all my updates on fb.. photos.. moods.. statuses.. haha..

but i do want to juz record down my feelings after the tasmania trip..

it was realli a good trip.. although i have always thought that nature is pretty, blah blah, yeah, but i am not the kind of person who like to go for scenic/visit-nature-ly kind of trips. i have v low threshold for dirt, sweat n i have poor stamina... so u can imagine...but i am so glad i went for this trip! the things that i saw is beyond words.. i find that the world is so amazing.. so pretty.. and so extremely big! so big that i find my own problems to be so small and meaningless.. i was even surprised by my own excitement at seeing those sceneries! also, the ppl there seem happier and much friendlier than the ppl here in the city..

i had enjoyed myself so much in that 4 days.. i think to escape from the stress of work and problems, the best way is to visit these kind of places.. with farms, animals, forests, mountains and creeks.. :) or mabe i'm juz very sua ku cuz after living in a city all my life, i nv knew wad it's like to be in such places.. haha..

2009-08-28T22:35:00.002+08:00

so long nv blog le.. cuz all my interesting events are recorded with photos, posted on facebool! faster den resizing n loading them here.. hehehe.. pls go look if u r interested!! some photos r quite nice la (oops now bhb alr)

nthg exciting so far la.. still waiting for my tax acct no to be done.. not looking for job yet.. dunno wad i wanna do too.. mabe i could juz scrimp and survive on my savings..

anyway, today went to yarra river with cm, tere n our camera! took lots of photos.. it was nice to be out today, cuz the weather was really good! sunny blue skies, cool breeze and not too cold today. perfect day to be out there lo.. we walked along the river, saw some swans (tere was trying to talk to them, telling them not to rely on human beings for bread crumbs anymore.. she was serious! hahaha..).. anyway, i was juz enjoying being in the sun without freezing to death!!!

tml gg grocery shopping again.. life here is just not exciting at all...

2009-08-06T09:58:00.002+08:00

its not so cold now.. its quite comfortable actually. but i still have to put on an extra coat when i'm outside. but generally, it is not as cold as when we juz reached..

we've stayed at out new place for more than a week alr! the first few days we were juz cleaning n cleaning n cleaning.. cuz the previous prcs who stayed here sort of like, left everything covered in a layer of oil and grime.. it was gross.. the bed collapsed, the hood above the stove had one side falling off, the stove itself was like black and oily with huge clumps of dunno-what, the sofa looked like it was rotting, when we open the wardrobe, an awful stench came out, with unwashed/washed(dun really wan to know) bedsheets and even clothes inside!!!!

and, altho this room is supposed to have only 1 double bed, there is an extra single bed in the living room! and an extra wardrobe! and an extra study table and 2 chairs! someone must have been staying here without telling the management! the place is alr very small, n these took up so much space! in the end, cm buay tahan, he went to dismantle the bed and the extra table. luckily he happens to be the kind of guy who can just fix n unfix stuff. =) so after he put the extra set of furniture away, the place looks much better.. after we vacummed n scrubbed n washed, it now looks finally proper to live in!

then we went with teresa to supermarkets and ikea to buy stuff for our new home.. like cups n plates and cultery. there were some left behind by the previous ppl, but all had a layer of mold, so.... we threw away everything. major YUCK! and we bot new bed sheets, quilt and quilt cover.. n a small fan heater, and some biscuits (hee), hair dryer.. cant remember wad else. but we bot quite a lot of stuff..

we've gotten used to the weather.. but i havent gotten used to the ppl and their accent here. hopefully i will be able to get used to it soon..

2009-07-17T17:03:00.003+08:00

so fast.. alr in melb for 3 days... set off on tues mon.. sobs sobs was reluctant to leave at the last min lo.. so she bu de.. then my sis gave me a card n made me cry inside.. wah lao.. T_T

reached at nite ard 7.30... had a hard time moving all those stuff to the yha hostel.. but we finally made it.. so tired.. we juz bathed n ate microwave food from 7-11 downstairs n went to sleep. zzz..

the next day went to his sch, opened bank acct, bot pre-paid sim card, then went to DFO to shop a bit.. nthg much...

ytd went to melb aquarium.. got penguins! dat was the highlight i think hehe.. realli realli cute! check out the photos on my facebook. i have like a million more of the penguins in my camera but fb limits to 200 per album.. so...

anyway, after the aquarium, we went to the Crown plaza, which is like a huge casino, all glam n glittery, like jackie chan's movies where he shoots poker cards like bullets and crash the game tables like biscuits... u know! haha... anyway, we went back to this restaurant dat we went to a few yrs back.. it's realli cheap lo... like $12 for each main course (limited choices la..) and $12 for 3 drinks... alcoholic drinks!! i ordered one bottle of light beer, cm got a bacardi coke and jim bean coke. all for $36.. yummy!

then we went to watch harry potter... of cuz muz watch la! it's harry potter leh! haha... but the tix realli ex... wonder if it is their standard prices here in melb... we paid like $34 for 2 tickets... almost as ex as our dinner lo.. haiz..

and today.. sigh.. we ran of out ideas.. and it is so cold, we dun realli wanna go places like great ocean road n stuff.. so we walked ard town.. bought some stuff to cook dinner from the supermarket.. came back ard noon.. den went out again to explore the area.. in the end went to supermarket again.. haha... and we juz did our laundry... so.. it was an exciting day.. ya right. -__-

we were at elizabeth st, and we saw this shop called Lord of the Fries, claiming to be vegeterian, gluten free, salted by sea salt n all.. there are vege burgers too but we got the normal ones.. well the burger was not bad.. quite nice.. but the fries is.. too salty!! machiam sea salt very cheap lidat! but i guess sea salt cant be too ex hor.. juz go to the sea lo.. all yours to take.. haha. the sauce is pretty nice tho.. mabe the part-timer too new at this.. dats y too salty.. sigh.. but i do like this kind of fries, thick-cut ones.. very nice =)

2009-07-11T09:54:00.001+08:00

Because i have no money to buy one for myself:

haha.. sign up thru me so i can haf more chances leh.. juz for fun.. haha.. but dun sign up i oso dun realli care la... lolz..

2009-07-10T00:59:00.002+08:00

so that's settled. we've found a place to stay. but will be staying at yha first, a hostel as we can onli move in on 27 jul.. well it's reasonable..

omgggg it's realli happening.. i'm realli gg away for a yr.. had been excited abt it when it seemed like months away but now dat i haf onli less than a week to go, i am so so so so freaking scared!!!!

but at the same time i cant wait to see how it will turn out. i'm sure (sort of) that we will have a great time.. that it will be so much fun.. that we will learn a lot from this experience..

and girls shd be entitled to an extra lugguage. hor?

2009-06-30T18:44:00.002+08:00

weird feelings.

these few days i've been cramming pictorial memories of the places i've been to n ppl i've met up with into my brain for a storage of memories I can tap on if i get homesick in aussie. ok mabe my camera did a better job den me la.. arghhh wad is this strange feeling of dread and sunkeness in the pit of my tummy? (no dun think i'm hungry) T_T

everyone's so envious of wad i am abt to do.. quitting my horrendous job n running off to a far away land, nv having to drag my unwilling self to the office every morning anymore.. but wad i realised is dat dragging myself to work has become some sort of solid ground in my life. after i stopped doing it, i felt realli great for a while but now, i'm juz wondering "wad else can i do?"

there are like, millions of things i wanna do.. tons of possibilities out there.. but will i find them? will i be able to catch hold of them?

okok enough wallowing in self-pity. i shd count my blessings. literally.

Count-my-blessings list
1. great sisters =)
2. family
3. i'm married (still hard to believe haha)
4. get to live overseas for a yr
5. am not born in africa

regarding this no. 5, the thought of adopting a child from places like africa and mongolia has crossed my mind more than once. when we r more financially stable, i'm so gonna do it! anyone interested to do it wif me? read online that u onli need to pay $50 or $60 each month and u can pay for a child's daily needs like food, clothing, medicine and education! any extra will go to helping the whole village too! but is it true?

6. i can wear my sis's winter cloaks so i dun need to buy any
7. i'm healthy (this obviously has to be at the top of the list but didnt think of it juz now haha)
8. all my loved ones r healthy too (replacing no. 7 to be top of the list)
9. i found a place which sells O.P.I at $30 for 2 bottles
10. i'm still young!

ok i feel better aleadi :D

2009-06-20T23:38:00.003+08:00

1st week of my freedom has passed in a flurry.. busy busy busy.. mon went to NUS with cm to buy laptop from the IT coop, then went to fren's place to play mj and Wii overnite. me n cm even went to buy extra nanchucks and remotes as some r a bit spoilt and we oso wanted to make it complete. =)
tues after sleeping in late, went out to meet ex-am frens for dinner at vivocity.. haha.. realli nice to talk to them =)
wed went back to work.. after dat think we went home to play maple. haha.. n went gym too..!!
thurs went back to work again for a while.. den went shopping at orchard. meet up with zy n sl for dinner at northpoint..
fri was super run errand day.. went to sch pick up cm's transcript.. down to idp.. den went to sembawang to meet his fren and went to nus tog again to collect laptop (cuz using his fren's name..).. after collect laptop, went to look for winter clothes again.. sigh sian.

today morning went to listen to pre-departure briefing.. den went to meet my sis, sy n jer at tampines..w ent to safra tampines' minds cafe... v fun!! will post photos in fb =) realli glad to meet up with them.. they are my family~~ my sisters~~ after playing went to tampines to walk walk eat dinner.. v tired cuz prev nite couldnt sleep till ard 5am.. =S

it's for real.. we r leaving in 3 weeks.. i cant describe my feelings now.. a total mess of excitement and apprehensiveness.. cant wait to go on this adventure but at the same time v scared of wad is gg to take place. haf been getting serious butterflies in my tummy recently juz by thinking abt it.. Argh!!! i gotta relax n take it easy... *breathes deeply*

2009-06-14T00:10:00.004+08:00

i am feeling 3 different feelings now. all sort of related but not so related. haha..

1. Happy!! Freedom!! My last day at work was ytd. well on paper last day.. on leave for the next 2 weeks.. but still will be going back once or twice a week to see see.. cuz no replacement yet.. but still, it's over =) but then, feel kind of dejected as well.. altho work sucks, i do feel part of the family there.. so quite sad to leave too.. but no worries i will look forward! =D

2. EXCITED!!! looking at jackets n winter clothings etc etc.. preparing for the trip! am so happy n excited!! but at the same time.. a bit worried.. hopefully everything will be ok..

3. feeling old now.. was on FB looking at ppl's photos... saw fk's sg flyer photos.. young n sweet love! actualli i dunno if they r an item but look so sweet surely is a couple liao rite? haha.. reminded me of our beginning.. oso sweet sweet one.. now older aleadi.. even gotten ROMed..
kind of miss the "honeymoon" period, the "birds are singing and flowers are waving at u and the whole world seem to sparkle" dat kind of mood. HAHAHA i'm not exaggerating hor! it is realli lidat when u've just fallen in love! lolz..
research says that falling in love causes ur body to release endorphins on a all-time high. so ur body is like high on drugs lidat. dats why feel so high. smthg lidat. ^^ i could use a little of that once in a while!

of cuz now i am feeling very blessed and happy too.. but.. i feel old... TT____TT altho yes la i am still young but the feeling of youngness is different!

last time we were like this:

So Young by The Corrs

We are taking it easy
Bright and breezy
We are living it up
Just fine and dandy

We are chasing the moon
Just running wild and free
We are following through
Every dream, and every need

And it really doesn't matter that we don't eat
And it really doesn't matter that we don't sleep
It really doesn't matter, it really doesn't matter at all (realli honestly it didnt matter last time.. now if i dun eat dun sleep i think i will just shrivel and dry up. -__-)

'Cause we were so young now
We are so young, so young now
And when tomorrow comes
We'll just do it all again

We are caught in a haze
On these lazy summer days
We're spending all of our nights just
A-laughing and kissing, yeah

No it really doesn't matter if we don't sleep
No it really doesn't matter if we don't sleep
It really doesn't matter at all

now, my song is:

The Young Ones

The young ones,
Darling were the young ones,
And young ones shouldnt be afraid.

To live, love
While the flame is strong,
For we wouldn't be the young ones very long. T__T my thoughts exactly.

Tomorrow,
Why wait till tomorrow,
Tomorrow sometimes never comes.
Love, me,
Theres a song to be sung
And the best time is to sing while were young.

T__T

2009-06-07T21:26:00.003+08:00

i bot me a new cammie!! fujifilm f200 exr.. supposed to be realli cool according to cm.. -_- but i am not too sure... hahaha.. and i bot a pouch to put my cammie in... i think i like the pouch better... sigh there were other nicer ones.. but all too small for this cammie.. this cammie is huge!! =( ok its not so huge but quite big compared to the other compact cammies...

gosh i am spending so much money.. but i am very happy!! haha.. shopping makes ppl happy... :)

2009-06-04T10:38:00.003+08:00

i'm bored at work.. and not bcuz i have nothing to do.. i have tons n tons of things to do/reports to write! but i am juz fed up and sick dat I feel bored. u know wad i mean... juz very very SIAN...

sigh i realli am glad dat i am leaving this job.. it is nice to work here.. and i will realli miss all my staff here.. but i realli dun like the jobscope.. well i guess u can say that all jobs are the same.. it's juz a job.. how exciting do u wan it to be.. better have a secure job and be bored than be free and have no income at all.. blah blah... but i think if u keep on holding to smthg juz bcuz u r familiar with it, then u will nv know wads out there for u! of cuz if u are perfectly happy with wad u have, then u r very lucky! i realli realli do hope that one day i will find a job dat makes me happy, not juz for the money alone.

but happiness is relative.. and job satisfaction is also relative.. some ppl are happy with a clerical job. i guess if the job is ok, the ppl are friendly and the boss not too bad.. i can be pretty happy in a position like dat too. some ppl prefer jobs that are exciting.. more outdoors.. more sporty.. etc etc etc.. i guess it would be realli fun to have a job lidat too.. actualli finding a job is like finding a bf! some ppl juz Bang! and found the Best Job In the World, some ppl are careful and test try a few times before deciding on which to settle down with.. some ppl keep on changing and changing jobs.. nv settling down in a job for more than 1 yr.. haha...

ok i am realli mad to write so much abt work n jobs when i am supposed to do the appraisal reports!!! OMG 5 of them to write!!!

LL STOP SLACKING N START WRITING!!!

2009-05-29T01:04:00.003+08:00

i am Mrs Low CM! ^__^

smthg wrong with my fb's photo albums, or i would be uploading the photos...

realli exciting in the end!! almost late cuz my make up took ages and there was a huge traffic jam! i almost tot i wouldnt be able to get married afterall.. T_T but luckily, we managed to get there in time and everything went on smoothly.. the dinner was nice too.. phew..

ok realli tired... but happy =) lucky i'm on leave tml..

2009-05-28T13:11:00.002+08:00

today's the day.. finally.. our rom day.. or rather, nite.. as we r having a small dinner of 2 tables..

everyone's asking me "how do you feel? excited? must be really nervous hor?"

well, to tell the truth.. i dun realli feel so excited.. or nervous.. happy yes of cuz very very happy.. and mabe a little worried.. abt things like will it all go smoothly? will everyone like the dinner? is 2 tables enuff or will my relatives find it too little? hopw my MA won't make my make up too exaggerating.. things lidat..

and it doesnt help that i am having diarrhea.. argh.. i dunno wad i ate wrong this time.. realli realli bad ls.. mabe my stomach is trying its last futile attempt to reduce my tummy size.. lolz..

now i'm juz at home.. playing restaurant city on cm's account (cuz he hacked mine until negative points.. and i cant play it anymore..).. and wondering if i shd tidy my room so that i wont be embarrased when the MA comes in later.. lolz..

2009-05-19T20:00:00.002+08:00

cm's back for a few days aleadi! but.. unexpectedly.. his grandma passed away.. and dats y he is still busy even after his holiday.. i haf also went to the wake for the past 2 days.. ok mabe it wasnt unexpected.. she has been at the hospital for the past few weeks.. so not that unexpected..

he has also started his RT.. he came back on Sat, 11pm.. RT on Sun 8am aleadi.. realli almost immediately.. cuz if he dun start soon he wun make it in time b4 he leaves for aussie.. today oso RT..

but no matter wad, i am juz glad that he is back now. absence does realli make the hearts fonder. but i think absence is too hard to endure. cuz after being together so for long, it is realli weird dat suddenly there's no one to reply u. felt kind of empty. i guess if my sis was ard i wld feel better.. but she's also not ard.. and at home there's onli me n my mum.. my mum is.. u know, mum. its different. she's been here forever.. haha..

anyway, hope everything goes well from now on..

2009-05-15T19:47:00.004+08:00

today is friday~ TGIF~ and he's coming back tml! tml midnight tho.. sigh and he's got RT on Sunday morning.. so i can onli see him after that.. T____T

sigh today is boring.. juz another day at work.. smthg dramatic did happen at work tho.. some ex-staff who was unhappy n went to mp to write letter to complain to moe. we r guessing he dun wan to pay the money for breaking bond la.. haha.. well.. like my OM says, it's things like these that makes life interesting.. haha..

and i am counting down to my last day (tentative)~ 4 more weeks to go~~~ i hope my p can pls quickly find a new AM.. or my last day won't really be my last.. i dun mind gg back to help la.. but it would be so awkward.. like u told everybody that last week was ur last day then suddenly u r back at work. it will be like u cant bear to leave! haha.. but actuali i cant wait to leave.. i want to visit everyone! but i dun wan the work =p

argh.. i am going crazy.. i suddenly realise that i must have talked a lot to cm normally, cuz now dat he's not ard and the international call is so freaking expensive, i am having conversations with myself in my own head! sometimes i even imagine how cm would have responded to me! omg... gg crazy...

okok stop this crap le.. tml still got meeting and i need to take minutes.. sigh i hate being minute taker.. zzzz...

2009-05-14T15:26:00.002+08:00

as i log into blogger from my work desk.. i am suddenly reminded of a dilbert's comic. He was sitting in his cubicle, flicking his hands and thinking "I am sitting here doing nothing but flicking my hands! And I'm getting paid for it!" Then he makes a happy silent "Yes!". Lolz..

pretty much like wad i am doing now.. BUT it's DIFFERENT! i am not doing nthg.. i am juz taking a 5 minutes break! I am so sick of my work and so sick of all those crazy ppl! AhhhHHhhh!

but nontheless, i am getting paid.. oops i feel a bit guilty lo... =p

sigh abt 98% of me is wishing that i can leave my job asap. but a tiny 2% of me is saying that i'm gonna miss my CSOs.. sigh. i know how it is gonna be again.. all the "Keep in touch!" and "We'll sms you!" will in the end fade away into nothingness... perhaps next yr if i'm having a wedding dinner, they will still attend. but after that.. hmm i think we will juz stop talking altogether.. i realli hope that they will get a better and nicer boss than me. well maybe it's hard to get a nicer one cuz i am so nice! hahaha! (but i really am! i buy their bday presents and create personalised bday cards!) XD

ok i have to stop liao. my five minutes of break is over.

like i can still concentrate on my work.. zzzz... pls let it be 5.30pm soon..

2009-05-13T19:25:00.002+08:00

omg.. is it onli wednesday? well onli 3 more days left.. shd be ok..

now i can tell ppl i have been in LDR before.. HAHAHA..

anyway, sudden change of topic.. if i can have a wish come true, i would wish for every person to be able to find his/her happiness. Of course the happiness must be of a good-natured kind! some ppl derive happiness thru some really psycho ways.. some crazy ones even derive happiness by killing ppl.. if these kind of ppl find their happiness, the whole world will die lo (but all will die happily of cuz, since my wish came true.. hahaha omg it doesnt make sense) ..

anyway, supposedly everyone's wishes were of a good-natured, harmless kind of wishes, i realli hope dat everyone can have their wishes come true.. dat way, wont this world be realli nice to live in? everyone around you will be happy.. there will be no more fighting! no more hunger! no more poverty! everyone will be millionaires!!! i only worry abt abalones and geeses becoming extinct, since everyone will be wanting to eat abalones and foie gras once they are rich.. lolz..

but i realli feel tt humans are too smart for our own good.. why cant we be more simple minded? why cant our personalities be more straightforward? why cant our desires be plainer? why cant our lives be uncomplicated? why do we worry abt consequenses?

when i think of these questions, i suddenly realise that the answers can be "yes" to all of the above..

can i be more simple minded? Yes
can my personality be more straightforward? Yes
can i have plainer desires? yes..
can my life be uncomplicated? yes..
can i stop worrying abt the consequences? Yes!

it's all a matter of choices.. you are who you choose to be.. =)

2009-05-12T11:56:00.002+08:00

Had a slight fever on Sunday and yesterday.. and recently all the hype of swine flu made me a bit nervous, although my temperature was always below the trigger temp for swine flu, so i shouldnt have to worry..

anyway, i searched online for quite a bit of information regarding flu symptoms.. one thing i couldnt understand was why would the body ache? I vaguely remember that the aching shows that the body is resisting the virus or smthg.. but i cant be sure..

What I found:

While influenza is a virus that specifically targets the respiratory tract, it does have an impact on the total body causing fatigue, fever, and muscle and joint aches.

Joint aches occur from a form of mild arthritis that occurs with influenza. There are over 100 causes of arthritis, and a viral origin is one of these causes. In arthritis related to viral infections, immune complexes that form as a result of the body's attempt to rid itself of the virus, may be deposited in the joints and result in a temporary arthritis. In this case, the virus itself does not settle in the cells, rather the body's own immune response to the virus causes the joint achiness. Once the virus is gone, the body's immune response settles down.

In general, arthritis resulting from a viral infection such as influenza:
- Generally affects joints throughout the body
- Often felt as joint achiness, rather than joint swelling, redness or tenderness
- Usually accompanied by a mild fever
- Often begins gradually following viral infection
- Not cured by antibiotics; usually goes away on its own

After reading I realised that it's probably true, most of the aching happened around the joints.. damn painful on Sun. but by ytd i was alr recovering, and the aches were not that bad alr too. luckily i didnt go and see a doc.. since it couldnt be cured by antibiotics anyway.. haha..

2009-05-10T20:43:00.005+08:00

i changed my blogskin again...! had the tsubasa blogskin onli for a few days.. it was realli realli cool but i think this suits me better. hahaha..

ytd went out with cuimei n xing.. we went to xiang3 shou4 while our "hubbies" are not ard hahaha. we went far east to do pedi and mani.. quite a good deal.. but my pedi aleadi has one crack on a toe (due to wallking in heels.. xing was smart, she wore flats..) and my mani now has scratches and holes aleadi. haha.. well nvm, at least i enjoyed the process of being scrubbed and trimmed and pampered =)

after dat we went to Palai Renassian (or smthg, cant spell it rite.. it's opp far east, not the shopping one) for dinner at the restaurant at the basement.. xm brought me n zy there recently.. and since i remembered it was quite nice, i recommend to them.. but in the end.. our food took ages to come lo.. like 45mins? i had to ask the waiter to check on our food.. in the end they oso paiseh and gave us a complimentary dessert.. aiya but the food was nice and their service was quite good. apologise a few times somemore.. so i guess it is still a good place to go to =)

i had the grilled red snapper.. i love the cherry tomatoes.. they were slightly grilled too! yummy..

so we juz sat there.. chatted for quite long.. even after we had finished our dinner.. and the dessert.. realli nice to hang out with girls! i think i miss having these girls outing and doing girly stuff =D yea i guess cm would accompany me to do pedi mani too, but he won't be discussing colours with me! and when we are shopping, every thing that i tried on he would say it "looks nice".. so, it's good to have a girl's opinion sometimes hahaha..

my pedi-ed toes.. with the ugly crack *bleah*
as for today.. i read a book.. the Confessions of a Shopaholic.. i love the shopaholic series..even b4 the movie came out.. in fact, i have a tshirt that says Shopaholic in pink! haha.. anyway, it's a gift from cm. Its supposed to keep me company while he's gone. but i read it in like.. 3 hrs? chick lits are nice in that way.. easy and entertaining and funny.. kind of like watching a movie.. haha.. and no matter how some ppl may think those books are brainless, i realli enjoyed them =p this series anyway. and the ones by marian keyes.

after reading, i went with my mum to causeway pt to have dinner.. today's mother's day, but onli me at home with her, so dinner oso juz us lo.. haha.. ate at Lerk Thai at the civics centre.. dun think she realli like it.. but i think she was happy to be out anyway. =)

tomorrow's monday again.. i am having a slight sore throat and cough today.. slightly feverish now too.. i hope it doesnt turn into something nasty.. dun want to waste money visiting a doctor again.. -___-

2009-05-09T10:08:00.003+08:00

cm has gone off to tw for a holiday with his family.. for a whole week! coming back onli next sat, at almost midnite! so envious.. at the same time, i'm gonna miss him so much.. =( u better buy me lots of presents ah!

it is realli weird to be separated for so long.. yea one week is not long at all la, but then, it's the longest we've been apart from each other so far..! i guess in the future, there will definitely be more occasions where either one of us will be away for some time, such as reservists etc.. so i better get used to it! haha..

also... it's already May! My sis is coming back on 25th~ and soon after, The Day will arrive! we will finally be legal! haha..

i am really very happy and excited abt it.. kinda freaky even.. u know, my work really sucks, and i get really sian at work.. sometimes, juz sometimes i get so frustrated i even cry in the office toilet. but when i think abt this, i will feel some sort of energy taking over me, and a smile will somehow appear on my face w/o me realising! freaky rite?

i think it's because i fully understand how difficult it is to find someone who reciprocates your love, and loves you unconditionally.

in fact, i'm really proud of him! i know it seems weird. wad do u mean by proud?? ok, maybe proud is wrong, i mean pride. erm sounds weird too.. u know.. it's like..

i always complain that my bags are not nice even tho cm thinks i have enough bags alreadi, or i complain my hair is uglier than my friends, or they are slimmer than me, etc etc etc

but i think that my bf is the best in the world! =D

ok ok i admit, i sometimes will complain to him that my other girlfrens' bfs are better than him cuz they r more romantic than him, they buy more gifts, blah blah blah.
but i know i will nv trade him for anybody else. and somehow, it gives me some sort of pride.

就好像石欣卉唱的歌一样：

我给的拥抱你要收好
你给的依靠我放不掉
你给的微笑还在嘴角
我的骄傲是你的好
我想回抱你别转身走掉

这首歌是悲伤的，但听到这几句歌词时，我竟然感到共鸣，也感受到缓缓的一丝暖意。嘿？唱着唱着，我嘴边也不知觉地浮起了微笑。怪别扭的！歌那么伤感，唱的人竟然会越唱越开心！

哈哈！我想回抱，你别转身走掉！要不然，就要你好看！ XD

-sigh- can u come back alreadi??

2009-05-01T01:09:00.002+08:00

I really really really like this manga~! =D

juz now had a dinner with some AM colleagues.. so nice to be able to eat and chat without thinking abt work as we usually do.. we ate at Sakura buffet. it is ok la.. $27 per pax.. food is quite ok.. variety quite good too.. but quality wise, well so so la.. but i am easy.. so i find it quite good.. sl seem to think its not v nice.. she keep persuading me to go eat $100++ jap buffet with her.. er.. dun think i have dat much money (and dat much tummy space to eat back the money).. haha..

well i guess i'm glad that at least i had made a bunch of good frens.. and i get along well with the ppl in my sch as well.. i think i will miss them quite a bit after i leave.. haha.. but its ok.. there's always emails, facebook n msn!

too bad i didnt take any photos.. sigh..

2009-04-15T23:10:00.003+08:00

if u r getting married... do not learn from me!! we r a bad example!! -___-

our ROM date is on 28 May... we didnt do anything except to register on rom.gov.sg until last Fri...

Good Friday public holiday -
me: havent bought anything for the ROM yet leh... heard there's a SK warehouse sale. shall we go and see?
cm: oh got sale ah.. good.. let's go lor.

At the warehouse sale -
me: aiyo.. why so messy one..
cm: warehouse sale is like this la..
salesman: sorry not ur turn yet! after this couple then serve u ah!
me: -_-
...
...
...
STILL QUEUING!!!!
...
...
...
yes! our turn!
me: do u have any wedding bands not so thick one cuz my finger is very small
salesman: all wedding bands standard la. all thick one. no choice one la.
me: @_@ really no choice meh? -continue to look for smaller rings-
salesman keeping quiet with a bored look
me: (irritated) aiya dont wan to see liao la!
cm: ah? so fast ah.. ok.

feeling super sian.. we went to nearby shopping centre which is the parkway shopping centre. then we juz shopped for abt.. an hr? n we bot our rings which we liked (or i liked.. haha.. but cm likes it too!) and oso on promotion (which we didnt know until we went to pay cuz the salesgirl was new.. -_-..).. so in the end quite a good deal.. but the salesgirl was quite surprised when we told her our rom is in may.. she was like.. "er.. dats a bit near.." =p but i shd have started looking earlier.. cuz my finger is quite small.. if i went earlier we would be able to customize a smaller ring for me.. but bcuz we went to late.. we could onli alter a ring form size 7 to size 4.5.. its faster but seems like custom make a new ring would be better den cutting and joining the ring back to make it fit.. plus my one cut a lot.. hope its ok..

sun.. met up with zy xm n sl for tea.. den went to walk walk.. n oso search for a dress.. and i finally found one! in far east this shop called Lovepotion .. they have very very nice dresses!!! its at this tiny corner at level 4 i think.. anywayz, i loved the dress =)

den i read on forums abt getting solemnisers to go outside and solemnise ur rom for u.. but.. they all send requests to their solemnisers like half a year before.. whereas for us.. one month away only and we didn't even find one.. actualli we tot we would juz go to ROM and rom there. but den.. it seems so mafan to travel ard.. and since we r gg to have a family dinner anyway, why not get a solemniser to go to the restaurant n do it there? all the forums exagerrated la.... wad need to request for a date with the solemniser like 6 months b4.. but i juz emailed ytd.. today confirmed aleadi. hahaha..

i cant help feeling a little bit proud of myself! place for dinner oso settled aleadi.. book n confirmed aleadi.. now onli left.. shoes!! i cant find shoes to match the dress.. sobs.. today took off to settle some of the details and oso look for shoes n oso formal attire for cm.. in the end cm bot 3 shirts, 1 black pants and 1 berms.. all i help to choose de.. all he wanted was the white shirt and black pants.. haha.. at first he bot 2 shirts n berms.. altogether cost abt $90.. after paying den i said ok now we go look for the shirt and pants for rom. den he was like "haiz i spent so much aleadi but i havent bot anything ah??" LOLz... den he realised wad was happening and he said "oh no now i'm shopping like u! i onli wanted to buy a shirt n pants leh!" haha.. oops too late.. in the end.. i didnt buy anything T_T

anywayz i realli hope to find my shoes soon.. and i realli hope that everything will go well n smoothly..

note : health is most important to a person.. dun juz be grateful for a healthy body.. muz work hard to maintain it! dun take it for granted!

2009-03-30T22:22:00.002+08:00

is it bcuz i've told my boss abt my leaving.. that i feel so much lighter now? everyday when i look up, i find the sky so beautiful.. the sun casting shadows and reflecting light off the clouds.. making them so pretty and magnificent..

maybe it's juz bcuz there's more sunlight now that it isnt raining cats n dogs everyday anymore.. haha...

i developed the photos taken on my hk trip..and i hung them on the wall on the living room.. together with a photo of my parents as well.. it seems to make the home a bit more homelier.. once in a while, i am still brought down by panic at the thought of leaving my home for such a long time. but seeing those photos, i somehow feel a bit better. besides, now is the best time to go explore a bit. i haf no family committment.. and my parents are still fit (not that old yet haha).. plus it would be good for me to reflect and think abt wad it is that i wan to do with my life. learning to adapt to a new place and trying to work there will definitely toughen me up somemore (altho aleadi toughen quite a bit after this AM job..-_-).

realli looking forward to it!

and i really feel like screaming.. I AM ALIVE! =D

2009-03-19T23:23:00.002+08:00

i'm back from Hong Kong!! cant believe it ended so fast!! i had a great time there.. realli good to see tt my sis is adapting well over there too!

during this trip i did a l ot of things that i wouldn't have done normally.. i went hiking... -_- yes i went hiking.. cant describe how tired i was.. but the scenery is beautiful.. it's a whole island with beautiful landscape.. i tot there would be a lot of tourists, but surprisingly there were more locals on local tours than tourists.. there was even a birthday party for kinds there.. lots of children running ard.. zzz.. we had a great time taking photos as well.. got to know new frens of my sistoo.. but while we were walking.. n climbing a bit too.. i didnt dare to take photos.. cuz i have to keep looking at where i'm stepping! once i tried to take a photo i almost tripped.. so in the end i onli took photos when we sstopped.. but anyways the inside of the island is not v pretty..

and then.. i sat on a roller coaster.. twice! >_< ok it's not the realli huge kind, but it was the biggest one i ever rode! my sis even better. she went to take the big one alone!! sorri la.. i realli dun dare to take.. haha.. the 2nd one was at disney land.. the space thingy.. ok la dat one wasnt as scary.. cuz not much of the dropping down.. it was more like slamming to the sides very fast n quite violently.. once my head and arms were flung out of the cabin but cuz there was a safety bar pressing down on all of us.. so i didnt fly out lo.. if not.. i sure fly out one..

n we ate n shop quite a lot too.. hehe.. v tiring but fun.. we oso went to ocean park n disneyland.. all the touristy places.. wanted to go vic peak n big buddha too but too many places to go to.. and too many things too see! haha.. anyway my sis went there twice before aleadi.. n i'm not realli interested in those.. so we changed plans..

next! i hope my sis can join me at australia.. den it'll be my turn to show her ard too!! cant wait! =D

戴佩妮-----防空洞

2009-03-03T00:05:00.003+08:00

戴佩妮-----防空洞
作词：戴佩妮　作曲：戴佩妮　编曲：吴庆隆

还记得那一次你将你的手
小心的放进我的口袋轻声的说不要颤抖
还记得那一次你擦干我的泪
还坚持将我低下的头紧紧的贴进你的胸口

我有多久没感动过若不是你那么强烈的保护我
若不是你的那一句你有的不多
却愿意把最好的都留给我

你要我住进你心里的防空洞
不让无谓的思绪暗涌
再多分扰也都没有用
你决定了我所有的喜怒哀愁

你把我带到一个停泊的港口让回忆可以避避风
仰望着夜空听潮起潮落
为你我不再向往着漂流

juz heard this song again.. its a simple song.. but very very nice... juz fr fun, i went to translate the lyrics to english using google translator:

Still remember that time you will be your hands
Careless whisper into my pocket that will not tremble
Also remember that once you wipe away my tears
Also insists that the lower my head tightly paste into your chest

How long I have not touched off if you are so strong to protect me
If you are that you have a few
Are willing to put the best are left to me

You want me to stay in your heart of the air-raid shelter
To prevent unnecessary thoughts Invisible Waves
More sub-disturbance are of no use
You decide all my sad喜怒 <--- google dont have such a word lolz
You put me to a berthing port so that memories can避避wind <--- no such word either haha!
Looking up at the night sky listening to the ebb and flow <-- chim..
For you and I no longer yearn for the drifting

2009-02-26T21:43:00.007+08:00

so bored.. and sian now.. some stuff happened at work.. some heads did not think properly and almost caused a huge mistake. i juz happened to spot it. and it's my duty to say out wad.. if i dun, it will affect me too.. in the end.. everyone think i'm being difficult.. picking out faults n creating trouble for them.. haiz.. mabe their world is realli complicated.. their every actions has underlying meaning. but i', juz a simple person. to me i was juz saying the truth. not trying to play some politics lo.. ANYWAY i wanna forget abt it. gonna leave dat place soon anyway. ytd went to sembawang shopping centre wif my parents.. the whole place was renovated and juz re-opened recently.. it is quite nice.. we ate at aston's... not bad servings are quite big and quite tasty.. papa had lamp loin chops and they were medium cooked!! looks disgusting but he say it's nice.. juz a bit bland.. and the whole dinner was cheap.. the four of us ate abt less than $50... then i went to popular and saw this realli cheap keyboard.. so i bot it.. cuz my old one is realli dirty.. got like huge clumps of dust and dirt in between the keys.. and i bot this!! a realli pretty cookbook!! <a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_WgvrAdK4ves/SaanHe51SvI/AAAAAAAAA_c/RdqyqnJg7Mw/s1600-h/sphoto+032.JPG"></a><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_WgvrAdK4ves/SaanHcgVz_I/AAAAAAAAA_k/oM_n0oaACIw/s1600-h/srainbow.JPG"></a> <a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_WgvrAdK4ves/SaanHIi4yHI/AAAAAAAAA_U/AHeDnzp3_yU/s1600-h/sphoto+025.JPG"></a> <a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_WgvrAdK4ves/SaanHKuSdkI/AAAAAAAAA_M/T27HP87404g/s1600-h/sphoto+017.JPG"></a> <a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_WgvrAdK4ves/Saam7nBm4xI/AAAAAAAAA_E/VPl2mtH329A/s1600-h/sphoto+016.JPG"></a> <a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_WgvrAdK4ves/Saam7t8BIiI/AAAAAAAAA-8/wDOusKWoTIQ/s1600-h/sphoto+014.JPG"></a> <a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_WgvrAdK4ves/Saam7vQEDvI/AAAAAAAAA-0/DmApuHAHSDY/s1600-h/sphoto+013.JPG"></a> <a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_WgvrAdK4ves/Saam7U9ZxNI/AAAAAAAAA-s/HJI_LKV3A5s/s1600-h/sphoto+012.JPG"></a> <a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_WgvrAdK4ves/Saam7eRJiwI/AAAAAAAAA-k/72RHOaF10_0/s1600-h/sphoto+004.JPG"></a>

so bored.. and sian now..

some stuff happened at work.. some heads did not think properly and almost caused a huge mistake. i juz happened to spot it. and it's my duty to say out wad.. if i dun, it will affect me too.. in the end.. everyone think i'm being difficult.. picking out faults n creating trouble for them.. haiz..

mabe their world is realli complicated.. their every actions has underlying meaning. but i'm juz a simple person. to me i was juz saying the truth. not trying to play some politics lo..

ANYWAY i wanna forget abt it. gonna leave dat place soon anyway.

ytd went to sembawang shopping centre wif my parents.. the whole place was renovated and juz re-opened recently.. it is quite nice.. we ate at aston's... not bad servings are quite big and quite tasty.. papa had lamp loin chops and they were medium cooked!! looks disgusting but he say it's nice.. juz a bit bland.. and the whole dinner was cheap.. the four of us ate abt less than $50...
then i went to popular and saw this realli cheap keyboard.. so i bot it.. cuz my old one is realli dirty.. got like huge clumps of dust and dirt in between the keys..

and i bot this!! can u tell wad is it?
its a cook book! and its very pretty~~
showed it to cm and said i wanna buy that book. he gave me a look and asked if i was sure.

thinking that mabe he didnt trust the book cuz of its cover, i bot another one which look more like a normal cookbook:but not before i realised i had understood his question wrongly. he meant whether i was sure i could even cook!!!! T_T how can lidat~~ no confidence in me!! hahaha... Anyway beggars cant be chosers. hmm wrong expression. nvm.

anyway, juz b4 dinner, as we were waiting for our chicken cutlets n spagettis to come, we went outside to see the new water park.. a playground with lots of water everwhere.. the kids were totally crazy abt the place.. anyway.. it was drizzling and the sun was setting.. and wow! we saw a rainbow!! can u see it in the picture??
my phone camera is too lousy to capture it properly.. T_T but its was realli pretty.. and it was a really huge and long rainbow! felt very lucky to be able to see it.. but cm quickly poured cold water over me by saying "i see rainbows until sian aleadi. always see one" -___-

random photo.. my wallpaper on my work laptop.. rose that cm gave me last time!
random photo: one day after work i felt like gg out to eat and we went to marina square.. there's a thai food restaurant beside the dian xiao er.. forgot the name of the place.. anyway they were having this cheap promotion.. $18 for 2 persons.. so we went in lo..

the set meal includes:
One pot of tom yum soup.. could fill abt 4 bowls of this bowl... it is super spicy.. until our eyes tear dat kind..

omelette with crab meat. this is not bad..
sambal chilli kangkong..

green curry chicken.. sweet sweet one.. not very spicy =)and then we saw this on the menu and wanted to give it a try... steamed cuttlefish! it is very healthy, no oil, very simple dish but it is very nice!
after dat we were even served free desserts.. quite cheap rite..

random photo - chocolate tt cm bot for me cuz i was so stressed abt work.. =)

btw, i cut my hair.. long curls gone.. sobs sobs.. dslr takes very nice photo.. love it very much.. we juz bot a six million dollar house for it.. haha.. a crumpler bag la.. lolz funny name rite.. altho for a small bag that costs that much, i think it is quite appropriate lo..

okok end of entry. too long liao.. haha.

2009-02-15T03:06:00.002+08:00

v-day juz passed.. n now it's cm's bday~! this time we did not do anything special.. no fancy gifts or dinner or anything.. went for a movie and then we juz took a long walk.. juz like wad we did in the past.. we walked from suntec to marina to raffles city and then back again to suntec.. slowly taking out time.. altho we were window shopping n looking at stuff along the way, we weren't realli shopping.. juz walking n walking.. n i realli enjoyed it.. we talked abt everything under the sun, even had a little arguement and resolved it, all in a walk!

earlier this morning i was talking to an old fren.. who said she had failed relationships bcuz its her own problem.. once she got attached to a guy, her expectations became very high and she becomes unreasonable.

i guess everyone has different expectations of an ideal relationship.. but you muz communicate with your partner.. if he/she loves you (and it is within their means) i'm sure there will be a way to solve it.. however, if even you find the request unreasonable, then you really need to control yourself n rethink carefully abt wad you want... it cant be always abt how you feel.. if you realised that you are in the wrong, apologise n make up for it! dun always expect your bf to say sorry, even when you r at fault.. ok maybe you still wan him to say sorry first (girls always need a bit of coaxing ma.. lolz) but after he took the initiative, you muz also admit your mistake.. you cant constantly need your guy to be giving in to you, he will get tired one day..

of cuz u can say that all i had said are so cliche.. everyone knows it.. but u will feel it more when it happens in reality. it is not easy to decide to be together.. it is not juz a happy ending.. it is a beginning to a new phase of life.. and in reality, to begin a new phase of life always brings lots of problems.. in recent movie Bride Wars, it was said that the period of preparation for a wedding will be a trying period for a couple.. some strengthen their bonds even more closely together as they work hand in hand to overcome the various problems, while in others, it brings out the differences in them instead.. this is so true, no matter getting married or not.. when 2 persons try to solve problems together you can tell whether they are suitable for each other..

i hope that in 10, 20 yrs down the road or whenever i'm all weary from all the ups n downs in life, i can read this entry again, and find the initial reason to work hard for everything.

i cant sleep but i'm still happy now.. =) haha.. happy valentine's day n happy birthday~

2009-01-28T21:57:00.002+08:00

tagged by weilin.. i tried to do the qns in chi but too hard.. cuz muz type hanyu pinyin den choose the word you wan.. too slow! so in the end i gave up n juz replied in eng.. hehe..

幸福套餐 NO。1♥

01 你的绰号 : andra, ah lian
02 年龄 : =X secret
03 生日 : 14 dec
04 星座 : 射手座（Sagittarius）
05 兴趣 : surf online aimlessly.. eating.. reading.. play silly games..~
06 专长 : 撒娇算专长吗？haha..

幸福套餐 NO。2♥
01 你有没有喜欢的人? : yes.
02 是否在交往? : yup
03 现在幸福吗? : I feel that I'm the luckiest girl on earth =D altho i keep saying i wan a lot of things like new laptop, new clothes, new shoes and new bags, actualli i have all the important things in my life aleadi - family, love, n health (health is most impt!! pls let me n my loved ones b healthy forever!!)
04 如果上天给你勇气，最想做什么事? : job hop until i find a job i realli like, but now i dun dare to =(
05 如果有天，你爱的人跟你告白的话? : happy la, cuz if the person u like likes u as well, isnt that a good thing?

幸福套餐 NO。3♥
01 点你的人是: weilin
02 他是你的 : 同年同月同日生的好朋友!
03 他的个性? : friendly, humorous, fun-loving, and like me she is gentle, caring and very clever! haha!
04 认识他多久? : since jc1
05 你觉得他怎样? : she is very nice person who is funny n interesting to talk to! i'm so glad to know someone who has the same birthday as me!
06 你想对他说什么 : i would like to wish her all the best in everything she does..事事顺利, 心想事成!每天都幸福!

幸福套餐 NO。4♥
01 最爱的节目 : guess guess guess and 综艺大哥大
02 最爱的音乐 : chi songs
03 最爱的季节 : singapore where got seasons?! but if u r talking abt other countries.. i guess shd be autumn.. haha..
04 最爱的卡通 : jap anime.. n snoopy and baby blues n garfield too =D
05 最爱的人 : i guess this is refering to bf again.. haha..
06 最爱的国家 : dunno leh.. nv travel much.. but food wise i like jap food a lot. haha.
07 最爱的天气 : a bit cloudy with a nice breeze.. nice to sleep at home..

幸福套餐 NO。5♥

01 如果上天给你三个愿望:
第一个：give me more time to do all the things i wanna do, and still have time for myself n family.
第二个： to be able to realise wad i'm good at and be able to dedicate my whole life to doing that job..
第三个： i wish the wars can stop.. pls stop fighting!!!
02 你是很专一的人吗 : yes
03 最深刻的回忆? : erm.. too many n too personal haha.
04 你是个很有信心的人吗? : no.. in fact i think i'm the most unconfident person anyone can be..
05 你很爱微笑吗 : will try to
06 如果你要放弃你现在的生活，你愿意吗 : give up my job no prob.. can always find another one.. but not my family n frens la..
07 妄想什么样的生活 : my fantasy ah.. got a lot.. like haf loads n loads of money, become very pretty and tall.. suddenly very good at dressing up, and my whole family lives in a castle with all the retro furniture, but also have modern stuff like Wii, cable tv, aircon.. er i think i can stop here.. fantasies i got alot lo.. haha.. i do nthg but daydreaming all day..
08 是否横刀夺爱才是爱 : no..

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2009-01-25T14:08:00.003+08:00

OK i shall continue to post abt food! haha..

fri nite met up with ai gals again~~~ sort of reunion dinner but we r meeting again next weekend i think.. to play wii n MJ. hehe.. we had dinner at waraku de pasta at the Marina Sq branch.. the food is not bad.. pizza is realli nice.. and nice dessert as well! but i think i didnt ate a lot.. couldnt even finish my own pasta.. but still 'gian' dessert.. in the end juz ate a bit and cm had to finish the whole thing.. haha..

tiramisu parafait~ (i think dats the name..)then ytd afternoon, met up with val n mich for high tea at goodwood park! at first mark n aiwen were joining too, but mark had some "unfinished business" with his honey (god knows wad haha) and aiwen "seriously tot it was next Sat.." super diaoz.. so in the end it was juz 3 of us.. but its ok.. we had a great time.. juz relaxing on the couch.. n enjoying the piano music.. n chatting n joking.. and the FOOD. we ate a lot! At first we tried to eat like very nicely but in the end decided not to be so pretentious lolz...

nice teapots n teacups..

wide spread of food =)
how can i not grow fat? haha.. cannot cannot.. i muz try to reduce n try to exercise..!!

2009-01-21T15:25:00.011+08:00

苏芮：牵手
Title: Holding hands

因为爱著你的爱 (because I'm in love with your love)
因为梦著你的梦 (because I'm dreaming your dreams)
所以悲伤著你的悲伤 (so i'm feeling miserable about your misery)
幸福著你的幸福 (and my happiness is because of your happiness)

因为路过你的路 (because I've walked where you walked)
因为苦过你的苦 (because I had suffered what you suffered)
所以快乐著你的快乐 (thus i'm happy about your happiness)
追逐著你的追逐 (and aiming for what you are aiming)

因为誓言不敢听 (because I dun dare to listen to vows)
因为承诺不敢信 (because i dun dare to believe in promises)
所以放心著你的沉默 (that's why i believe in your silence)
去说服明天的命运 (in tackling tomorrow's fate)
没有风雨躲得过 (there's no storm avoidable)
没有坎坷不必走 (no difficult paths we can skip)
所以安心的牵你的手 (so i feel secure in holding your hand)
不去想该不该回头 (not thinking abt whether we should turn back)

也许牵了手的手 (perhaps after holding hands)
前生不一定好走 (the future path might not be easy to walk)
也许有了伴的路 (perhaps after having a companion)
今生还要更忙碌 (this life will be even busier)

所以牵了手的手 (thus after holding hands)
来生还要一起走 (still want to walk with you in my next life)
所以有了伴的路 (thus after holding hands)
没有岁月可回头 (time will not be turning back)

*in chinese, walking together in this life means to go through life together.

every single word in this song..is reasonating in my heart. and in many others who are thinking of their loved ones right now =)

2009-01-20T22:37:00.003+08:00

sigh.. realli busy at work recently.. dunno why so busy.. somehow everything cannot finish.. den when i'm home still got to finish up the minutes.. check emails.. damn sian.. and dun feel like gg out as well.. only stay home n play facebook.

well i guess its ok, cuz pets is really quite entertaining! i like decorating and redecorating the rooms.. and the pictures are so cute.. but sometimes after playing ard for a while.. oso get bored.. sigh

anyways, here r the rooms i've redecorated.. trying to put some red to have the cny mood.. feels weird dat my sis is not here.. but i guess she will oso haf a great time in hk! =D

heard good news frm a fren who bcame AM same time as me.. she's pregnant! congrats! always makes me happy when others r happy.. it reminds me of wad i am working for.. but.. i still dunno wad i wan for my future! i need to find out wad i am good at.. or wad my passion is.. so i can "run with my strength".. dats wad the p said today.. -_-

juz now went to see dentist with my mum cuz she complained toothache.. den on the way there she said she was v scared! lolz actualli i oso scared la! even tho i'm not the one with toothache.. den when it was her turn, the dentist at 1st said is wisdom tooth. i was like "WAD? so jialat??" den he go on say "will costs $150 for extraction if it's wisdom tooth.." mummy was llike.. "anything.. too scared to think abt the costs now" well she didnt say dat but her face said it all. lolz.. den he took a huge metal syringe and i told her to close her eyes dun look! but she still struggle a bit.. cuz the jab was really painful! the funny thing was.. i was squealing together with her.. even tho i wasnt the one on the chair.. i think i didnt really provide any moral support.. only added on to the fear lo.. haha.. anyway, after the jab, the dentist only took like a split second to pull out the tooth.. and it was only $50... wth.. scare us until lidat.. in the end juz normal tooth wad.. zzz.. anyway mummy was really scared n her hands were cold.. lolz.. but glad it was over!!!!!

2009-01-17T22:45:00.002+08:00

wad a day..

morning went back sch to take my notes of meeting to write the minutes at home.. then rushed to ICA to collect my passport.. sigh i take so many photos to choose a nice one. in the end its black n white photo.. no diff.. haha.. anyway.. after dat rushed to dbs to remit money to my sis in HK.. den went to see face doc for more med.. the he recommend me to do the pixel treatment. which is literally using laser to pixelate ur face lolz..

so ard 4pm cm accompanied me to the branch in taka.. did the pixel thing.. man it was so painful!!! really burning my skin with laser! and after the whole thing, my face was filled with square dots, like pixelated lidat.. zzz.. so pain aleadi.. they still put anti bacterial gel.. burned like mad.. so painful painful painful!!!!

now it's better.. not as pain but still quite painful.. like pricked by needles.. erm.. oso like sunburnt badly.. supposed to peel to promote cell growth.. kill bacteria in my acne.. destroy blackheads n whiteheads.. blah blah blah.. supposed to be GOOD.

sigh i hate inflicting pain on myself.. but all for vanity.. >_< in the past, i would nv do smthg so painful juz to look pretty.. not to mention super expensive.. but now.. i hope to be able to look better (i know my skin cannot be perfect liao la.. juz trying to look better) so that when i rom i can look pretty.. but its really painful.. is it really worth my effort? wad if in the end still no improvement then how.. sigh..

Agh! dun care le! if improve den good. if cannot, den oso nvm!

2009-01-13T22:37:00.002+08:00

my latest craze.. pet society on facebook! realli realli cute n addictive game cuz everything is juz so cute~!!
my living room:
My bedroom:

toilet.. there is actually a pink wash basin but the pet is blocking it.. :green room with all the nice plants! altho its more pink than green..haha..:
kitchen!!! so cool! haha..:yup i'm dat addicted to it..

gg to hk to find my sis in mar.. by myself!!! cuz cm is unable to go with me.. the studious student is gg to do his fyp when i'm not ard (he'd better be..). kinda afraid of taking the plane.. but then i really wanna go visit my sis! and its oso a good chance to travel ard.. plus she would know all the good places so she can show me ard.. hope she doesnt get us lost.. haha..

i juz hope the plane doesnt meet much turbulence!! i am just so so so afraid when the plane shakes.. dun feel secure at all abt flying in the sky.. =(

work is as usual.. draining.. since sch starts.. the hurricane starts again.. everything in a whirl.. happening so fast.. so many deadlines.. sigh.. will be glad for a holiday soon...

2009-01-08T20:38:00.004+08:00

so fast... i still rem saying "aiya still got a long time b4 she goes to HK.." and suddenly we're helping her squeeze all her stuff into her luggage and waking up early in the morning to go to airport (actualli i couldnt sleep at all.. juz stayed awake cuz had to get up at 3am.. i think only cm managed to sleep.. n my sis slept too cuz she was sick with flu). then off she goes into the departure hall and the plane took off le! it is january in full blast action!!!

when she went into the departure hall, i suddenly "bu she de" her to go!! haiz why i so emo?? muz be due to lack of sleep, plus worry abt whether she can find her way by herself and if she will be alright alone for 5 mths.. when she didnt call back after her plane arrived in HK (we knew cuz cm checked online.. the plane was late by 1 min! haha we r dat kan chiong..) i was in such a panic.. luckily she managed to call us in the end.. turns out she couldnt use her roaming service, and she had to buy a prepaid card first..the pay as u roam got to manual select operator first.. who the hell would know that???

after knowing she is safe i finally managed to sleep.. after sleeping for abt an hr, we went to buy a web cam so we can chat with her on skype.

first time gonna be separated from my sis for so long.. but hopefully she will have fun during this trip and enjoy herself thoroughly!!

2009-01-06T22:32:00.004+08:00

we bot canon eos 450d! wanted to buy one b4 we leave for aussie, but he got a fren who knew a distributor.. who can sell us cheaper than outside.. so he went to check it out.. and it indeed is much cheaper den retail price!

so excited..!! we tried n took lotsa photos juz in a few hrs..

here r some of the nicer photos!! =)

a photo of my ring.. looks super small right..

Ta Dah~~ can crop just the ring out and it is still so clear!!! then i just adjust the brightness n contrast in PS.. looks so nice hor! but the size of his fingers give away the actual size.. hahaha..
looks better in the box.. emo looking ring..

the view outside my room~~~ the lights are so sparkly~~ the shutter speed was almost 30 seconds.. zzzZZZzzz...

eyes saying "are u sure u know wad u r doing.."

cool lights in the car..

i'm in love with this baby! altho it horribly shows all my pimples and fat arms, it can take some very cool photos!

will go hunting for more places with nice scenery or buildings to take more photos!! XD

2009-01-03T22:33:00.002+08:00

did i say quit bogging him down with my worries? seems like i juz cant stop worrying.. sigh..

i shd try to relax.. we've got a plan.. plus we are still young and have the freedom to try living overseas. we shd go ahead n give it a try n not wait till we are both older. and i have the most responsible man on earth who has decided to do the most responsible thing for me..

but i juz cant stop worrying >_< i'm happy n excited yet worried at the same time. can anyone tell me if i am normal?

doesnt help at all dat work stress is still high.. but i am trying to remind myself everyday that i shd be thankful for a job at these unstable times, and my job is not really as jialat as some other frens..

lilian be grateful for wad u have!!

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2009-01-02T00:17:00.003+08:00

dunno why.. maybe i'm too sensitive.. but i feel that when ppl hear dat me n cm have decided to get married.. their first tot is.. "cuz he's rich. so can get married so fast"

yes his dad may be quite rich.. but i'm not marrying his dad! i'm marrying cm! cm n i dun haf much money, to tell the truth. but he wants to go overseas for study. and we wan to be together, so we decided to ROM. it's our own decision! it is because he is responsible enough(to go for 2 weeks holiday is one thing. to stay abroad for 2 years is another thing!) we are not getting a big wedding at a big hotel! not even getting a flat! just a simple rom! why do ppl think we are at an advantage cuz his dad is rich n can pay for everything? precisely we cant pay for everything, we choose not to have a big wedding. just a rom for family n close frens. it's a matter of choice! yes he's got a car. but it belongs to his dad! not him!! u think he can just decide to sell it for money or smthg?? or if he stop driving he can save the petrol money?? the petrol money is paid for by his dad oso wad!! and he is really grateful for it too!

then u ask "he bought u a diamond ring. who can afford a diamond ring when he's still a student?" Yes he bought me a ring. At year-end christmas sale and discount of 40%, plus it's not a big ring, and even tho its from Lee Hwa, it is NOT DESTINEE (hope no one asks me anymore). He spent a lot of effort looking for the best deal.. to be exact, the cheapest but most presentable deal. good n cheap!

a teacher even ask me "why nv ask for a bigger diamond ring?"

BECAUSE i would have said yes no matter he gives me a ring or not. But the fact that he saved up his money and tried so hard to find the best ring he could buy for me touched me tremendously, and made me even more convinced that i can put my trust in him. yes he can easily ask his parents for money to buy a bigger ring. but seriously, would u marry a person like that?

yes my ring is not bigger than others but to me it is the prettiest ring i've ever seen and the only one i want to have. yes we probably are not gg to have a normal wedding dinner. yea his dad can probably pay for it easily, but we are not gg to ask him to do that! we are the ones making this decision despite the fact that cm is still a student. so we have to be responsible for our decision! again, i ask u if u will marry a person who only knows how to ask money from parents?

i envy those who go around choosing flats with their to-be-husbands.. but anywhere with him is home.

i'm glad to have frens who are happy that i've found my happiness. and to those who think me n cm are having an easy time cuz of his family background, i simply dun care. deciding to get married is just the beginning.. do u know how much more we have to do and plan and save up for to really be married? it is a lot of hard work.. no joke!

all these have been cooped up inside of me.. just got to let it out.. i know cm is under a lot of pressure as well.. he's trying to make everything work out.. so i wouldnt need to worry.. and he's working hard on his fyp project.. altho his prof says its ok if it doesnt work.. its just a fyp research proj.. he is still trying his best and he wants to make it work. all i can do to try to cut down on spending, save more money.. dun quit now especially i may not be able to get the same pay elsewhere.. and stop bogging him down with my worries.. i will try..

at the same time, i am glad i'm doing this. i wish that everyone can find their happiness too.. it is not easy, but it is definitely worth it..

2009-01-01T23:15:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year everyone~!!!

I had the most special n unique new year gathering this year!!! me n the other ai gals went to the OBS at East Coast! Shan is still an instructor there n asked us whether we wanted to go try some of the items.. we were quite interested n so we went..

first we did the tunnel maze or smthg.. its really fun n exciting~ but its very dark.. good thing shan gave us a light to hold.. at least can help us see a bit.. but i'm so useless.. me n cm were the slowest pair.. cuz i keep screaming la.. haha.. then we got the code wrong.. couldnt open the door.. so sad.. den shan juz open for us.. say dun try le la.. haha..

then we tried smthg i would nv haf tried if on my own.. the one which i always see other ppl do.. walk across a wooden log.. or walk on strings.. or swing over.. i am so afraid of heights!! i kept protesting.. then eveyrone just say aiya come aleadi den juz try lo.. so i tried.. gosh i was so scared!! wanted to turn back but everyone say cannot! so i kept on.. finally finished n i felt so happy!! proud of myself!! i can now say that i've been to OBS. haha.. last year juz went for rock climbing, and was beginner wall.. (n cm pulled me up one.. so not really counted haha)..

anyway, hope 2009 will be a good yr for everyone!! may everyone be happy everyday, healthy and fit~ good luck n have lots of money~~

2008-12-27T00:44:00.006+08:00

i guess everyone has to grow up..

and i'm not sure if i want 2009 to arrive so quickly.. it's gg to be a year full of major changes..

1. my sis gg to hk for half a yr starting jan for her exchange

2. one mth after she comes back, i'm probably leaving for aussie myself - meaning i only get to see her for 1 mth b4 leaving.. not that she's not coming back or anything.. but still..

3. got to try to adapt to new country n find a job

4. no longer can i go home n be taken care of by parents..

i realised that i have been so excited by the idea of getting out of SG n living somewhere else for a change that i've forgotten that i have to leave behind my home, my parents and sis for quite a while.. it makes me sad to even think of leaving them.. i will miss them.. even tho we always quarrel, family is family. i guess all children have to grow up and find their own homes eventually, but living in another country is totally on a different scale! n when i come back, will things be different? since i would be married to cm, will i still have the chance to stay with my family? suddenly i am not ready to leave my home yet.. the future is unknown n scary.. I'm not ready to grow up yet!

part of me wants to grow up n be responsible for my future. part of me just wants to go back being a child and curl up in my bed..

but as cm says, everyone has to look forward.. and as i have experienced again and again, time that has passed will nv come back. every second that i am using to type out this entry will nv come back to me. instead of living in the shadow of the familiar past, i have to try to go forward with anticipation.

yea i guess after 2009, my life will nv be the same again. but i'm sure it will be fun n exciting! i guess i'm juz worrying too much, again.. =)

2008-12-15T22:36:00.004+08:00

my birthday is over~ and i'll nv forget it.. i am such a lucky girl.. surrounded by love from my family n bf.. didn't expect tt my mum n sis would buy me a present.. and they were afraid i wouldnt like the design.. even if it's ugly i would also love it!! n it's not ugly at all.. realli like it and i'm really very happy tt they took the trouble to go shop for a present...

n cm did the sweetest thing for me.. he brought me out on sat, one day b4 my bday whole day shopping for a bag.. cuz i've used my old one for over a yr and the material is rubbing off onto my clothes... wearing out already.. so i wanted to get a new one.. after shopping for almost the whole day, i finally found one i like in Guess (again).. and it's on sale as well~ he paid for it (me happy!) and we went for dinner.. had korean food.. love the ginseng chicken.. but there was too much food.. ate till bloated!!!

super full.. i bet i gained another kg there sobs.. then we went to watch Twilight.. a movie abt vampire falling in love with a human girl.. when the male lead came out all the girls were giggling n gushing.. and i was like "who is he? dun even know him..." i think i'm realli old liao.. but overall i enjoyed the movie.. quite romantic..

then came the surprise cm had planned for me.. he brought me to a place where we could be alone, and he proposed. altho we had discussed countless times abt getting married.. i really didnt expect that he would proposed.. n i really didnt know that i would have such a strong reaction.. i was so touched that i couldnt speak.. n i started crying. i always tot if one day he gives me a ring, i would jump for joy n he would carry me n swing me around.. but instead i juz cried!! super ugly n unromantic!!

i know lots of ppl think cm is very rich.. but i know he only takes enough money to pay for his petrol n his food.. n he also work very hard for his dad.. he realli tries very hard to save money.. he likes the $3.90 flip flops bought from a shop in market better than NUM.. he wear $10 jeans from bugis village.. n we r thinking of gg australia tog next year mid june or smthg.. so even desperate to save money for it.. tt's also partly the reason we decided to get married.. if i follow him as a spouse, i can get working visa easily..

we probably will not have a banquet.. no money to have one.. and not really interested.. even if we have, it will be becuz our families wan it.. and it will probably be in 2 to 3 yrs time.. now we juz wan a simple rom.. with our close families n friends.. juz a simple affair.. maybe to others it's boring n unromantic.. but that's just how we are.. juz wan everything to be simple.. i am really lucky to have him..

I have a dream

2008-12-09T10:24:00.001+08:00

I have a dream, a song to sing
To help me cope with anything
If you see the wonder of a fairy tale
You can take the future even if you fail
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream

I have a dream, a fantasy
To help me through reality
And my destination makes it worth the while
Pushing through the darkness still another mile
I believe in angels
Something good in everything I see
I believe in angels
When I know the time is right for me
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream
Ill cross the stream - I have a dream

2008-12-08T09:51:00.004+08:00

juz met up wif my good frens for a gathering.. and i am now in shock.. we were discussing who would get married first, who would have babies and how many etc.. and also a few who said they didnt like children n so wouldn't think of having any children even after marriage. and then someone asked, "would u abort if u accidentally got pregnant?" and one of us said yes without hesitation. i am really really quite shocked..

i STRONGLY feel that all babies deserve a chance. they certainly did not choose to be conceived! if you choose to have sex then u jolly well face the consequences! abortion is juz an ugly way to shrink away from ur responsibilities! abortion is murder (or at least i feel that way)! u cant juz create a whole new being in your body and juz diminish it like it's worthless! i cant understand!

some may just see it as a ball of cells. i see it as a lifetime of opportunities for the little one. he/she can grow up to have a personality of his/her own, a life of his/her own and a whole future lies out in front. if u do not wish to be part of his/her future, ie if u do not wish to be responsible for the baby, then pls DONT HAVE SEX! even use of condoms is not always 100%. maybe go on the pill... to be 100% sure, pls go sterilise yourself! this way at least you won't need to face the predicament of having blood on your hands!

if you really are in a bad family situation, and u see no future for the baby in your home, pls give it up for adoption with MCYS.. every baby deserves a chance. if he/she doesnt have a future with you, you can give him/her a chance with another family.. while you are popping out eggs n throwing them away like they are worthless, there are people out there who are unable to have their own babies and would do anything to have one..

i know there are many ppl out there who think the same way as this fren.. and i won't be able to change any of them. abortion was supposed to be invented for the safety of women.. who cant have babies due to whatever health reasons or conditions they have.. but now we are simply using it as a way of cleaning up after ourselves

pls everybody, don't do it if you are not going to be responsible for the consequences.. life is precious. life is a miracle.. pls dont casually throw away the life of another person..

*very depressed mood*

2008-12-04T00:20:00.003+08:00

spent a beautiful day at sentosa... i wanna remember it forever and always remind myself to be thankful for the good things i have in my life.. and also remind myself that life is beautiful and i must cherish every moment. =)

2008-11-22T23:49:00.008+08:00

super early xmas present for cm~~ a swiss army knife~ with a thumb drive~!

he always liked these sort of stuff.. n i wanted to find out where to get the real swiss knife.. but after days of googling n surfing ebay, it seems like these knifes r not sold in Sg.. the official website Victorinox Swiss Army only delivers to US.. i was so disappointed.. then i tried to get frens in US to help me order and then send it me.. but seems so troublesome.. luckily, teresa helped me searched on ebay, and she found a seller who delivers to Sg~~!! i searched for so many days, and she only searched for like 3 minutes.. sigh..

Anyway, after i found a seller, i signed up for ebay acct so tt i could purchase it, but after making the purchase, i realised i have to link an Paypal account too.. yea of cuz i should have tot of it. but u know i am the kind who rather go shopping than buy stuff online.. anyway, that took me abt another night, until i couldnt take it anymore n asked my sis if she ever bought things from ebay. thankfully she said yes and she helped me purchased it.. Yay~

isn't it nice? i think no pocket knife can beat a real swiss army knife! =p although this is half a thumb drive really.. but still, it's really cool..

i had wanted to keep it as a gift for xmas.. then after 2 days, i couldnt take the pressure of having a secret for so long, so i decided to give him after his exams.. then tonite, i really couldnt bear it any longer n i told him i got a gift for him but i wouldn't tell him wad it was.. n when i got home it arrived~~ so i gave it to him on the spot.. so much for a surprise xmas..

random photos:
xmas deco at suntec city.. it looks like it's raining xmas trees..
we went to marina barrage last nite.. it was really nice n beautiful.. at the start ONLY..
first we saw this pretty water squirting thingy.. like a mini musical fountain.
as the barrage has a large circle walkabout around the place, we decided to try walking the whole of it to see the view.. the view was really pretty too.. but too dark for my phone camera..
but after coming to the end of the giantic circle, we realised there is no pavement for us to get down!! crazy!!! the only way was to cut across the grass n it was damn muddy after raining!!! T_T in the end we got really muddy shoes/heels n had to wash them off.. n i almost stepped on a bull frog.. it was horrible.. we ended up muddy n sweaty n sianz..

if u ever go there, no need to be so motivated to walk finish the whole thing.. juz get off the circle when u reach the Green Room.. unless if u r sure the grass wun be wet n muddy..

random photo again: a huge crocs slipper!! not for sale la.. but it looked quite funny and ridiculous.. haha..
deco at plaza sing... cant really see but there's angels at the back.

lastly, my photo with zheng xiu zhen (or jacelyn tay)!! =D i am totally ugly but aiya nvm la..i've been tying up my hair lately.. cuz really irritated by the tangled curls.. i have this urge to juz cut them off!!! shd i..??

2008-11-18T23:33:00.004+08:00

night scene outside suntec.. juz tot the night scene was nice but too bad my handphone camera is not good enuff! =p
ytd, mon, we went for staff retreat at this organic farm at neo tiew road.. the place is called bollywood veggies and doris knows the boss.. was quite excited cuz i've nv beem to a farm b4!

as the theme was wellness, we had a health talk.. by.. zheng xiu xhen! the former actress from ch 8!! omg!! she's very skinny n very pretty~~ but as i was late, when i arrived she was already ending her talk..and i was sitting way behind n only managed to get a lousy photo. anyway, another tr took a photo for us.. i hope she remembers to pass it to me soon! haha

the day started off quite crazy actually.. bus did not turn up on time.. had to call the boss n ask.. den doris was complaining abt the bus n all.. den when the last bus finally came, i received a call abt a transfer case which held me back and i had no choice but to ask everyone to go off first... mrs koh stayed behind with me n after i was done, we wanetd to go get a cab.. but.. 20min passed n no cab!! it was totally crazy!! on the expressway always see 4 taxis out of 5 cars, now wan to get one taxi and they all nowhere in sight!!??! then i was joking n said "sekali mr tan drive pass and we are still here" cuz he said he would go to sch 1st.. den.. he really drove past n we still havent got a cab.. and i asked him to give us a lift, but he wan to go back to sch 1st.. so we waited until like 11 den go off!! anyway, it was real weird in his car.. i got a lift from him b4 too, but its really awkward cuz i dunno wad to say! last time when i took richie's car i felt very weird too. i think i juz dunno how to chat with my bosses casually la!! anyway, mr tan almost got lost n luckily i could read a map.. n we reached there safely..

farm tour at bollywood veggies!! it was raining but didnt stop us from wanting to go n walk abt the farm.. haha..very countryside feel.. realli feel very relax when u see so much greenery ard u..
plots of vegetables.. the tour guide was a very young girl n she seemed to know lots abt plants! could tell she really like them too.. a banana plant and its beautiful flower!! it's called a lotus banana tree or smthg cuz the flower looks like lotus.. anyway, do u know that banana trees with flowers which are pointing up (like this picture) are poisonous!! the bananas cant be eaten!! u muz eat those pointing down!!
like this one! it's pointing down. but the fruits are too tiny so only fruit bats and birds like to eat.. it was a really fun n fruitful day.. cant say the same for the ex-actress's health care club tho.. =p

2008-11-15T23:49:00.002+08:00

random photos again...

cheese-y omelette with mushroom~ this is the first dish dat i invented myself yrs ago (actualli anyone can make an omelette but me cooking anything edible is quite a feat..) n cm likes it too~ eggs, cheese, mushrooms.. all my fav food items.. put together quite nice too! hehe.. i was reading xiaxue's blog n saw dat her photos all had speech bubbles, so put a lame bubble on my photo too. but after writing one for this egg picture, i ran out of ideas to write for the rest.. -__-

anywayz, i bot this cutest thing ever for my sis~~ this is a baby rabbit, representing my sis as she is born in yr of rabbit..n this is me n cm, cuz we are both born in yr of rats (and also this was cheaper than other the other mouse models)
together, we r a happy family~~~ for my sis cuz she's gg HK next yr.. and she can bring them over for company.. haha..

finally, p1 orientation is over.. next, breathe, drink, eat SEM!!!!

2008-11-05T22:45:00.002+08:00

had nice wanton noodles at casuarina road.. the same place with the famous prata.. just next door.. it is really nice.. the char siew is very nice too.. love the wantons.. one whole prawn in each wanton~ delicious~

finally finished this game: Final Fantasy Fables Chocobo's Dungeon. in jap the title reads something like Dungeon/tower of Forgotten Time.. or smthing like dat.. anyway it is very fun n chocobo is so cute inside~~ used to play a bit of FF in the past.. n i always loved riding the chocobos in the game.. very very cute n the music oso very happy kind. normally the main charac is a male charac, but this game, chocobo is the main character~ so cute!!

here are some pics that i google-d and found.. hope not infringing on any copyrights..:i cant wait for sch holidays to be here.. then i can apply for leave.. zzz.. damn stressful period now.. T_T

2008-10-31T23:25:00.002+08:00

it's magic! but to cm, it's called wires... anyway, my comp can do a lot of things now!

can go online and chat on MSN..

can play Wii games..

can watch tv~!!!

it sure feels like magic to me.. =) but now there's a bunch of wires behind the monitor and they look pretty scary..

tml's sat but gotta work.. T_T gotta go interview students for EAGLES awards.. sian.. shdn't haf told them i was from co.. now every year oso kenna roped in to interview them.. machiam i have a lot of experience.. but they dunno i oso juz "muck in water grab fish" one.. lolz..

2008-10-28T23:06:00.002+08:00

Today marks the 3rd yr anni for us.. but it was a tiring day for the both of us.. it's my late shift day, plus lots of things on my urgent list.. zzz.. and he got test till very late.. so i couldnt take leave and altho he normally ends at 4.. today he ended late too cuz of mid-term test.. and then, his car couldnt start n he had to go ard asking for ppl to help jumpstart his car.. den went to recharge his batteries den coming to meet me... sigh it was a long day.. and i was also stuck at office with lots of things to do..

but in the end, we finally met~ and he managed to squeeze some time to buy presents for me! Godiva chocs.. so yummy n smooth n rich chocolate..

i think he bot it for me cuz i always say i wanted to try but so ex so nv really went to buy any..

i need to get him a present too.. but i really had no time to go out n look for present.. so sad.. but here's a photo of a gift that i gave for his bday or smthg... the wallet in the background was a gift from me too~~ =D altho he aleadi worn the leather out, button dropped and evrything.. he is still using it~ the watch is from fossil..

2008-10-27T00:16:00.003+08:00

realli treasuring this long weekend as after this i probably won't be able to relax until end of Nov.. year end is a really stressful period..

anyway, ytd we had brunch at the amk hawker centre.. the big big one which used to sell AJ ice.. had the pontian wanton noodles.. love it~~~~ noodles very Q and wanton very soft~~ and i oso ordered a plate of fried wanton.. nice~~ heeheehee... i am a glutton..
random photo: cm looking at the rows and rows of cables which to me, all look the same.. but to him, its a world of fascination.. pretty much like how i felt when i see rows n rows of shoes.. my bf is a 100% computing nerd~!!

but the 100% nerd is oso the 100% sweetest man on earth who makes yummy blended drinks for me.. this one is a blend of strawberries n blueberries n yoghurt.. nice~~ and it's a pretty shade of purple too.. hehe..
wan to hear a joke? dat day we were juz wondering abt the various special dates if we wan to rom. and as he might be gg off to australia in june/july next yr, i jokingly said we muz get rom on 14th feb as it's v day, or 15 feb, his birthday.. otherwise no more special dates in the 1st half of the yr. u know wad he said?!?!?
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"still got one more special date! thaipussam lor.."

-_______-||| buay tahan!!!

ANYWAY

tml muz enjoy my last day of long weekend! after dat, muz brace myself for a long n ardous period.. looking forward to dec!!!

2008-10-22T22:41:00.002+08:00

sigh.. havent been able to sleep well lately.. sometimes insomnia too.. very scary to lie awake in the night alone and nobody to talk to.. not to mention walking ard like zombie next day at work.. am i very stress? i guess so.. but aleadi not as stress as last time.. i find dat i am coping the stress better.. why do i still face insomnia? i tried noting down the dates and stuff i ate or done whenever i cant sleep.. but there's no pattern at all too.. my body is kinda messed up too.. periods all off track.. sigh..

i guess this job is just not suitable for me.. today another new AM said dat it would be frustrating for the sch if the AM leaves after going through so much training.. cuz we were talking abt posting to HQ after 2 yrs.. well.. yea it's bad for the sch.. but gotta think for myself right.. actualli.. right now everything's a blur.. dun realli know wad i'm gg to do in the near future. after i leave this place, where do i go? shd i travel while still young? or do i wanna study more? i realli got no idea.. sigh.. i guess i juz hope to find a job which i enjoy, and wont find a chore.. is dat so hard..?

2008-10-19T00:32:00.008+08:00

random photos:

cm looking funny at me when i said i wanted to take a photo of him. haha.. he looked like a nerd in a library ma, carrying all those thick books. anyway, he really did borrow those books lo.. to study and use for his hyp.. jiayou jiayou~~ i know u've been feeling down n worried abt it lately.. but i'm very sure ur hyp will be the best! u can do it~~ but even if in the end u fail terribly and NUS kicks ur ass out, i will still love u la no worries
met up with zy n xm last last fri after work.. after a looong time.. xm juz changed her job.. makes me feel like changing as well but i shall not be influenced by others! >_<

today me n cm went for quite a walk.. first we went to check out the new fusionopolis (or smthg) at bouna vista.. cuz we heard abt it n cm's really curious abt it.. the building is done, but the shops are not open yet.. dun think it will be that soon. but the building itself looks very impressive! very big and tall..
as we were walking ard like tourists and looking, i saw some bangla workers doing some scrubbing on the tiles.. and it made me think.. actually, we have to thank them for their work.. this very building is created by their hands. we shouldnt treat them like dirt and should show them some appreciation! yes i know we pay them and it's their job.. but still, they put a lot of hard work into it.. the least we could do is show them respect.. without them, who can still look at another new skyscraper and say "Singapore is very fast at making new buildings leh!"

so.. everyone! pls respect the foreign workers! and stop asking the govt to keep them locked up in their dorms!! well maybe no one said it outright to lock them up but now they are building fences, putting shops so they won't have to come out at all.. feels like they are trying to reduce the reasons for them to go out.. they are just humans.. after a week of hard work, i'm sure they need to go out n relax.. they didnt choose to stay there oso.. if i am a bangla worker, i would choose a new dorm to be built in somewhere familiar like little india. but it's built next to the homes of some high income ppl who probably hated me and looked down on me.. u think they chose to be there??

anyway, after that, we went to have duck rice at a place behind NUS.. dunno wad road is it.. but it's after that famous winding road.. the duck rice is very nice!! den after dat, went to Hort Park to walk.. it's a very nice place to visit.. we saw this plant, its leaves will move when music is played!! we tot that it's bcuz they respond to sound waves la.. but not sure.. anyway, quite cute.. we played music form out hp and tried to make them move.. hehe..

after Hort Park, went Vivo.. walked abt hoping to buy smthg but nthg.. =( walked until our feet started to hurt and decided to go home..

wad a nice day!

2008-10-15T19:23:00.004+08:00

ここにいるよ- I'm here

By 青山テルマ, a female jap singer.. if you heard of 大嘴巴's "永远在身边" and you liked it, u shd listen to the original jap version!!!! more touching and a bit sad too. but i love it!!! really really nice..

Baby boy I am over here Waiting and not going anywhere Just here waiting for you
You know dat I love you As such do not worry
No matter how far you go This heart of mine will not change
You should know what I want to say
I am waiting for you

i found the jap lyrics too.. cant really understand it.. but roughly it's abt this guy n girl who are in love, and the girl is waiting for the guy but the guy cant express himself or smthg.. test ur jap skills =p

ここにいるよ
詞曲：SoulJa
演唱：SoulJa&青山テルマ

Baby boy わたしはここにいるよ
どこもいかずに待ってるよ
You know dat I love you だからこそ
心配しなくていいんだよ
どんなに遠くにいても変わらないよこの心
言いたい事わかるでしょ?
あなたのこと待ってるよ
Ha……待ってるよ

Yeah不器用な俺遠くにいる君伝えたい
気持ちそのまま言えずに君は行っちまった
いまじゃ残された君はアルバムの中
電波でしか会えない日々だけど見えないぜ君の微笑み
君のぬくもり髪の香りこののどの渇きは
そのまま満たされずに過ぎてく日々の中
なんだか君の面影ひたすら探した
君とよく歩いたあの道は今俺だけの足音が響いていた
んなことよりお前の方は元気か?
ちゃんと飯食ってるか?
ちくしょう、やっぱ言えねぇや
また今度送るよ俺からのLetter

鎌倉の砂浜で見た君の姿波にのまれた
君に言いたい言葉なんだかマジせつねぇ
男なのになんで…言葉出てこねぇや
覚えてますか?君と行ったカラオケの中
俺が入れた曲の言葉
モニターに浮かんだままほんとは
君に伝えたかった
君と二人きりで初めて待ち合わせをしたあの日
まるで偶然に会ったかのよう
にはしゃぎ微笑む君が忘れられないって
話かなりそれちまったがわかるよな?
俺が言いたい言葉
S**t残り書く場所がねぇや
ごめん次は絶対に送るから
俺がもっと金持ちだったら
もっとまともな仕事をしてたら
もしもすべて犠牲にできたのなら俺は絶対に君を...
だがPlease勘違いだけはすんな
君に寂しい思いはさせたくねぇが
忙しい中あんま話せねぇが
baby believeこれはall for our future
But 正直今すぐ君と会いたい
今すぐ抱きしめてやりたい
昔君が俺の隣で座ってた席には
もう誰もいないって...まぁ
そんな事はいいんだ言いたいことはそんなんじゃねぇんだ
いまさらだがずっと言いたかった
言葉を込め送るUnsent letter
Baby girl わたしはここにいるよ
You know I love you だからこそ
今なら素直に言えるよ
I don't eva wanna let you go

2008-10-09T23:46:00.004+08:00

today receive a letter.. gonna get $100 increase in salary! woo hoo so happy! suddenly got extra money..! haha.. they say it's a revision of my scheme.. and it's supposed to take place since july or smthg.. so they actually owe me $$.. lolz..

compared to some of my frens, my salary is actually not very good.. BUT! i am aleadi proud of myself for having come this far by myself.. i am not a smart person.. very blur.. and i used to complain why was i not born in a rich family, then i dun have to work part time or teach tuition.. but now, i think if i had been born in a rich family, i might not have tried as hard!

my tutee used to say he is just not as smart as others. when i told him i wasnt a smart person, i just work very hard, he laughed and say "no lo, u r just smart and things are easier for u"..

and then i told him "if others take 1 hour to understand a piece of hmwk, then u put in 2 hours. if others take 1 week to study for exams, then u take 2 weeks. whatever others do, u do double. that's how i do it. i am not clever like them, so i have to work harder than them."

even after working very hard, i am just an average student with average grades. but can u imagine if i hadn't tried, i would have scored even worse? anyway, i was not the only one, i had some frens who were even more hardworking than me, as their results were poorer. somehow we juz know dat the poorer your results, the harder you have to work. but a lot of students now just dun work as hard as we used to in the past.. i feel. could it be they are so pampered that they dun feel the need to do well for themselves? on the other hand, the parents are pushing their kids very very hard!

anyway, i am happy with the good news, and tml i shall enjoy my dinner date with xm n zy =) weekend is nearing~~

2008-10-02T22:44:00.002+08:00

the F1 came n went.. on the 1st practice nite me n cm went to see the race tracks and we managed to see the cars zooming past us for a while.. kinda exciting, with the deafening noise and all.. even tho we are not really interested in F!, it was cool to be near the racing tracks n see the sport cars.. i mean, how many ppl in the world get to just stroll along the river after dinner n pop by to see some F1 cars racing ard? haha we were the lucky few =)

after abt 10 mins of watching cars zooming past us (so fast we couldnt even tell the diff between the cars), we got bored and decided to go off.. these things just doesnt interest us..

sometimes i feel we r the most boring couple ard.. we r just 2 average persons, and we like simple things like taking a walk after dinner, catching movies during weekends and playing games on our psp and computers when at home.

and then u see couples dressing in matching costumes (honestly.. like costumes. not talking abt couple tees or matching clothes..), some couples are wrapped ard each other so tightly that the girl look like she's crippled and the guy is the walking stick, some behaved like the world is their home, and the escalator is their bedroom (urgghh bleahhxxx..!!##@$%?)..

me n cm r just 2 persons holding hand, strolling along, catching nobody's attention and minding our own business..

at times like these, i cant help but wonder one thing...

".... am i very old aleadi or wad???" T___T

ANYWAY, i was on the topic of how time flies and F1 is aleadi over, it's Oct and soon it will be 2009. (ok maybe not so soon but soon-ish).. anyway i am so sleepy now i aleadi forgotten wad i started out to write abt. zzz.. maybe abt the new Wii that we bought.. or maybe abt how my boss is retiring and now he is the most amicable old folk i've ever met..

2008-09-23T23:23:00.000+08:00

last sat, i went to the Night Safari with my sis n cm~!! it was so exciting~!! haha... there were lots of tourists and locals as well.. very crowded! at first i was a bit scared.. cuz i'm afraid of dark! and i've got night blindness too.. hate darkness totally.. but when i saw so many ppl, i immediately got all excited and anxious to start exploring..

luckily my sis has some discount from somewhere.. so we paid $21 for entrance fee plus tram ride.. not bad la..

the trip was quite exciting! saw a lot of animals.. and there's this funny animal (i think called tapir) which is half black and half white.. it was just sleeping by the roadside as the tram goes pass like a big fat dead animal.. well. i tot we were supposed to see them in action?? in the end.. all i saw was inaction instead.. a lot of the animals were just sleeping!! T_T

but still, we saw some which were very very active.. there's the pretty leopard with its thick furry coat and padded paws.. we saw it really up close, juz separated by a glass panel. so cool!! too bad we didnt take any photos of it cuz it was too dark and we were not allowed to use flash..

and then we went into the enclosure area with lots of bats.. dat part was way too much excitement for me.. i was so afraid of them flying into me!! didn't really dare to look up and whenever i hear flapping wings i screamed. even cm got a small fright when one of them zoomed past his ear. LOL.. it was so funny.. i think the ppl there must have been thinking "crazy locals.." when we rushed out, half squatted and laughing incontrollably.

we almost missed the animal show!! or we thot so la.. in the end, we even got seats at the front.. the animals were all so cute! altho i find it too short.. wanna see more of it! they got this weasel ( i think) to throw rubbish into recycling bins.. it was supposed to separate the rubbish into "paper", "plastic" and "metal", but halfway through it threw all into the bin for plastic.. it only wanted to get through the show quickly and have its treat.. lol.. then there was this pretty white owl which flew from one side to another on command.. really cool.. and there's this bear looking animal with long and strong tail like a monkey.. very very furry and cute!!! but dunno wad is it called. haha..

this is taken at the bar inside.. called the z'bar.. well.. i love the zebra chairs.. haha.. but the stuff were sooo expensive. bleahhxx..!
me n cm, all sweaty and sticky from the walking and humid air..
couldnt resist this tourist-y shot.. if not how can i ever prove that i've been to the Night Safari before?? haha..
great weekend!! i wish everyday was weekend, and we still get paid. haha..

2008-09-18T22:11:00.000+08:00

Finally! The secret mission i had been planning for mths had been successfully carried out! My sis's 21st bday party~!!

I loved attending parties, but my sis is too lazy to do one for her 21st bday.. so i tot.. why not do a surprise one for her?!

the more i thot abt it, the more excited i became.. so i started checking out the chalets in sg.. trying to find one good one.. i could book cheaper ones at changi as i'm a civil servant but those chalets look damn eerie.. the last time i went with the co group, i was so scared!! and it's not very accessible.. so i decided to go downtown east instead.. haha...

and then came the difficult part of locating all her frens.. pri sch, sec sch, jc and uni.. how to find so many frens?? i started logging in secretly into her msn (oops) and her facebook.. i peeped at her handphone to search for her frens' hp number.. and i started sending weird emails to her frens with headings like "Secret mission" etc etc.. LOLZ..

but it wasnt as easy as i had expected.. the day itself, i was so tired from all the rushing.. rushing to check in, check out the tables ard the chalet, tried to decorate the place.. no tables and in the end cm had to rush back home to get one.. went to fetch relatives in.. rush to get food from papa.. etc etc etc.. i was really very very tired.. even got painful muscle aches from carrying all those stuff.. but it was a success! well.. maybe not very fantastic.. but quite fun =p

yea~ she found us and the banner shouting her name in pink!!

group photo with us n mum.. papa not ard as he was still at work.. he came in later and we took more photos with other relatives as well.. so glad dat he was able to make it..
our one and only photo and it's blurred~~~~
CONNIE ONG SHIYA UR LOUSY HAND SHAKING CAMERA SKILLSSSS
my sisters.. the one in the middle is only 11 yrs old and she is taller than me aleadi.. -_- the wonderful (and overflowing) food prepared by papa:having fun with the sparklers.. we bought some as it was also the mid-autumn festival..
this is me trying to draw a star.. =)
the four of us (jerlyn, me, shiya, xiang) trying to spell "i love u!"then a lousy attempt at writing "LOVE"finally succeeded!!!! perfectly spelt and written and captured by the camera!! haha.. i love this picture!!

well i didnt take many photos dat night.. too tired and i really looked sweaty and haggard after all the running and worrying (that things might go wrong).. but really wanna thank all her frens who were so cooperative.. and my papa who prepared the food.. most of all.. really grateful to have cm with me.. he's the one who sweat the most, until like he jumped into the pool lidat.. he got the worst muscle ache cuz he carried the heaviest stuff (like 10kg of drinks on each hand.. crazy!!) and whenever i imagined something going terribly wrong he would cheer me up and reassure me that he would help me to solve any problems that would happen..
so there! i have done wad i wanted! held a surprise party for my lil sis! (altho she seemed to have guessed a bit when her frens insisted her going to the chalet on the reason that they need to get homework from a fren who was inside the chalet.. if i were her, i would say i'd wait outside cuz need to pay $1 to go in!! haha i am cheapskate.) and i think everybody had fun!!! =)

2008-09-06T00:24:00.000+08:00

have always wanted to try this little restaurant at the corner in the Central at clarke quay.. cuz it looked so cosy n pretty from the outside..! it's a jap restaurant selling western food. last time me n val wanted to go in, we were told to wait for one hour! and it was already 8pm! ytd ended work at 5pm still early so ask cm to go there wif me.. not only was there no queue, the shop wasnt even open yet -_-

Even the wet towel package looks pretty:

Very sad can.. the whole place was filled with nice seats with nice view of the sg river downstairs.. and i was seated at the ultra boring zzz-ing corner... the most interesting was the retro poster behind me.. and cm tried to take the most delightful photo he could (by taking it from a weird angle.. lol)
the place is decorated like a small pub and has a retro feel.. wanted to take a photo of cm with the background and he had to give me this look. apparently it has gotten to his head that he will look slimmer from his side view.. haha.. wadever feel from the shop's deco oso gone liao.. lolz
actually he look a bit like that Channel 8 actor Chen Zhi Cai from this view hor?? lolz.. rounder version..

omu rice with beef stroganov (or smthg lidat..).. this was wad he ordered.. it's very nice actually, but my sis says it looks like vomit.. -___-
this was wad i had.. a beef patty with some ginger pork at the top.. not bad too..
the couple behind us ordered a lot!! they had a soup each, den a big salad, den the escargots, den smthg else i couldn't rem.. den the girl had omu rice and the guy a big plate of spagette.. and i heard them saying "the food serving here is very small one.." @_@ actually is quite big lo..!

i guess i felt better knowing there are greedier and fatter couples out there. hahaha!!

2008-09-01T21:25:00.000+08:00

Yeay i watched W A L L . E ~~!!!!

today took a day off and watch WALL.E wif cm~ finally it's out~ i loved the movie.. very very cute characters.. and the story was oh sho shuueeet... ^_^ the graphics were all very pretty too! we went to The Cathy as they are showing it in the grand cathay.. the big big theatre over there..the graphics very pretty and then the screen so big.. damn shiok..! lolz.. after the movie we went to eat at Auston's as cm wanted to try.. it's not bad.. and quite cheap!!! some of the meals were going for like $6.50 and you even get 2 side dishes! like a grilled chicken with potato salad and onion rings for juz $6.50.. really good deal hor? and their choice of side dishes is really a wide variety lo..
cm ordered a black pepper steak.. tastes quite good to me.. cm says it's "very shiok". eaten halfway liao and i decided to take a picture.. it's only $11.90 i think.. which is quite cheap for steak (altho it's not very big piece oso la..)
i got the chargrilled chicken and sausages combo. $10.90.. not bad lo.. i couldnt even finish the whole plate.. what surprised us was.... no service charge, and the GST is already included in the price.. so if the menu says $14.90, then you pay exactly $14.90. makes me feel better even tho actually we still paid gst. haha..

2 weeks back the ai gals met up to celeb huijie's bday.. she recommended this indian vegeterian restaurant at Suntec called the Bombay Cafe Xpress (i think).. i saw the place b4 but i always found the deco ridiculous.. it has bright pink colours with some black walls.. and bollywood posters and mtvs on the walls.. man really quite weird.. so we all went in quite apprehensively (except for huijie.. she went a few times liao) but the food turned out not bad and we all enjoyed ourselves.. it was rather funny as we all didnt understand wad we were ordering.. when the waiter rattled off a few types of dhal (some kind of bread), i juz gave him a confused look and said "erm.. the first one".. i freaking had no idea wad he said! haha..

here's the food.. bread with dozens of sauces.. they were not as spicy as i thot.. mabe strong taste of herbs and stuff, but not spicy.. not too salty or oily either.. unlike wad i thot of indian food generally. =) quite good actually..!

another nice food dat cm brought me to eat.. prata at casuarina.. i guess everybody's been there b4.. i've been there once or twice too. but seldom cuz it's quite out of the way and u gotta drive to get there.. got a sudden craving for it so we both went there for breakfast..

sleepy cm eating prata with mutton curry:my plain prata and egg prata, with masari chicken (forgot the name.. so juz came up with one dat i tot it sounded like..haha)
and while we were eating we were watching some drama outside.. a suzuki swift got crashed by a toyota or smthg and the honest culprit waited and even went ard the stalls asking who's the owner of the suzuki.. i was thinking "wah seh.. if the owner nv see, why dun faster siam?" and then i felt ashamed of myself.. how can i lidat?! muz be honest like dat uncle!! =p

anyway, now u know why i am getting fatter n fatter!!! we do nothing but eat everyday!

2008-08-31T01:19:00.000+08:00

photos~~ sy's bday was on aug 15.. we meet up at vivocity for dinner together.. now we both haf curly hair~ my sis oso cut a new hairstyle.. kinda punky but look more like constantly sleepy cuz when she doesn't put gel, looks like she juz woke up.. lol.
ytd we went for dinner.. on a cruise!! well not very fantastic actually.. juz like the boat u will take to batam or bintan, but bigger version.. with 3 decks.. not bad.. the food not fantastic either.. but the host was funny.. and i even won the 4th lucky draw prize.. almost all of my admin team got drawn! then they were saying "lilian, left u only.. we all got prizes le.." and i was saying "aiya not so zun one la.. how can all of us get prize?" .. and den at that moment my number was called. lolz..

Btw, our theme was "people from the world" or smthg.. meaning u haf to dress up in costumes representative of a country.. thus some came in yukatas, korean dresses.. cowgirl.. and even pirate! haha..

anyway, here's ZJ~ oso from ai last time.. but from xm's class.. not veri close to her but we know each other.. so when i saw her being posted here, i was so happy! finally haf a fren~! she's wearing a yukata.. and i'm from china. -_-

Jo.. the ever smiling face in our office.. =) she's wearing a nice peranakan top!
JC~ she looked veri veri cute in dat korean dress.. wonder if it's safe to post photos up here..

today.. sigh.. bad start.. shan't describe.. juz dat boss is veri disappointing today.. anywayz, in the end we all got a free ride on the sg flyer! =)

Juz boarded onto the capsule..:
kinda freaky to try to go into it as it swings by the platform.. cuz it doesnt stop moving at all. it didnt move very fast, but still kinda exciting =p

me n cm in front of some cbd buildings.. and i photoshopped my tummy away, and my curls curlier.. dats y it looks so funny. haha.. and i made cm look a bit slimmer too!
almost at the top~~
yea~ top view! but nthg much la.. haha.. i guess bcuz we are local.. seeing these buildings since forever aleadi.. so not very interesting.. but tourists would love it i guess... can take nice photos..
today's a great day (if u minus away the morning). i wish everyday can be like today =)

2008-08-25T22:46:00.000+08:00

this is one of my fav songs from way way back.. when i was still in jc cuz find it veri nice n romantic.. recently heard it on yes 933 again.. now i have a whole new understanding of the lyrics..

彭佳慧 - 喜欢两个人

放弃自由喜欢两个人
绑住的两个人
互不相让还是相爱分享一生
不爱热闹喜欢两个人就我们两个人
在浮动不安世界里找到安稳

有时候关心就是交换一个眼神
抚慰就是暖暖紧紧的拥吻疼爱是不讲理也让我几分
体贴是偶而准你不像情人

心会累爱会冷这是感情必经的过程
只是有人就放弃也有人愿意再等
等一个发现等一个感谢让爱再沸腾
就算很在乎自尊我们依赖彼此不得不承认

really miss peng jia hui and her songs.. her songs are all very very nice, complete with touching lyrics.

2008-08-21T23:08:00.000+08:00

ok.. since there are 2 persons in this world who are interested.. here it is.. my permed hair! not very big but i like it.. but sadly.. now it's super uncurling itself.. T_T dunno wad to do juz put lots of cream n stuff, hoping it will look ok.. haha but i think it's quite fun! =)

p.s: i didnt put blusher.. i oso dunno how come got that red light.. mabe it's the traffic light. lolz

2008-08-14T21:49:00.000+08:00

for some reason i suddenly felt that it would be a good idea to try perming my hair.. so when i walked into one of the salons at far east, even tho my original plan had been to just cut and mabe color my hair, i asked them for the price for doing digital perm and then i did it.

I PERMED MY HAIRRRRR!!!!

it was good for the 1st 2 or 3 days.. then now.. it's like.. so cui.. juz a bunch of dry hay.. sobs sobs.. every morning muz put lots of stuff onto it to look nice.. i think i still prefer it rebonded.. mabe i'll juz go rebond again in half a yr's time.. -__- but for now, i guess i can juz live with it.. =S
sis n cm start sch le.. sigh once again i felt so envious of them.. still carefree students.. although studying is not easy at all, at least there are no bosses and sneaky colleagues ard u everyday.. i realli miss the simple days back then.. right now.. i feel like my future is such a blur.. no idea what i am doing.. no idea where this will lead to.. but i am gg to leave it to fate.. let things happen naturally. one day, everything will fall in place just nicely.. and hopefully, i will have saved enuff $$ to give myself a well-deserved break.. =)

2008-08-08T23:49:00.000+08:00

finally a sat that i dun haf to go back to work~! Hooray for N-Day! for the past dunno 3 or 4 sats had been burnt by work.. so sad.. so it's good that tml is a public hol, cuz i wouldn't be able to get in even if i wan to. haha

today is such a special day, being 08/08/08, eve of N-day and also the Beijing Olympics games opening. so i muz blog today!

every year my sch will hold some Talent Idol or Singing Idol.. and this yr, i was asked to be the one of the judges! well at first i was a bit apprehensive.. i mean.. i'm not even a teacher.. isn't it weird? but jul said it shd be ok la, so i juz went for it. it turned out quite fun =) the kids were all cute and some were funny.. but it was still rather weird when they introduced me as the sch administrator.. all the kids were so confused, not knowing whether to clap or anything. haha i guess i had enjoyed myself afterall..

ok, some random photos here.. mostly abt food dat cm brought me to eat.. haha..

1. veri veri nice teochew porridge at hougang.. veri scary lo.. it opens at 6pm.. 5.30pm aleadi got long queue outside!! but they serve very nice n cheap food! got braised duck aka lor2 ah4, braised pork or lor2 ba4, steam fish and many many more.. we ordered the duck n pork n veges n cuttlefish.. nice n cheap!
eat halfway liao den suddenly felt like taking photo.. haha..

this is at the teppanyaki restaurant at the top of jurong hill, next to jurong birdpark.. the place has got a nice view of shimmering lights from jurong island.. so after dinner u can go outside sit down n chit chat.. not too romantic tho, cuz lots of ppl like to sit there n chat. =p

they've got pepper beef, teriyaki chicken, miso pork, king prawns, scallop, salmon, asparagus etc etc.. quite a good variety n we loved gg there once in a while.. plus the chefs veri hao lian.. when they cook the beef they like to use wine and the fire burst into large flames for a split second. look like very impt part of the cooking but i think they juz showing off. haha! anyway, u muz see the way they cut the king prawns.. veri veri pro one k!! u nv have to peel prawns urself! lolz..

anyway, we ordered pork chicken n cuttlefish.. it comes with some ah-char or appetizer and ends u off with stir-fry beansprout.. =) yummy

another place tt cm brought me to is this yong tau foo stall at jalan besar, opposite of New World centre.. it's one of the shophouses along the road.. looks quite old and not very eye-catchy.. but the food is not bad! they serve yong tau foo dry, altho they have soup too if u wan, but i think dry one is more special..
dessert! many others like cheese cakes, tiramisu, ben n jerry's etc, which i love too, but my fav kind if dessert is actually the old-fashioned kind of dessert like black sesame paste, peanut paste, almond paste, gui ling gao, etc etc.. and my fav shop to go to is "记得吃" along Liang Seah Street, which is opp of bugis.. there's a few dessert shops there.. havent tried all of them yet but this is definitely a must go! =)

this is a drink tt nv fails to cheer me up.. thus cm sometimes will buy for me when i'm feeling rotten after work.. =) it's jelly-like drink, so feels very soft and sweet as it goes down ur throat.. haha.. but my sis says the lemon taste reminds her of detergent.. well it's fine to me.. so i guess it's ok haha.. anyway it's very hard to find places selling this drink.. if u know where to buy, let me know! right now we only know 1 petrol station which sells this ..

this is finally not abt food.. but abt our attempt to walk the henderson bridge.. it started veri badly.. we went to bukit timah hill, took wrong turn n walked one big circle and finally reached the Henderson bridge or waves.. den noon liao and sun super glaring.. i felt faint as we finished our water and the was so bright.. so we went back to the car.. zzz and the car was super far.. but still, the bridge was pretty, and i dun mind gg again.. when it's not so hot..
few weeks ago cm won a pair of tickets to the Guiness 9 ball world tour or smthg.. and brought me to watch the semi finals.. basically we watched the pros playing pool and we were on ESPN.. haha.. juz for a few seconds when they screened the audience.. cm's specs' reflections made him looked like an ET.. haha.. altho i am not interested in pool, it's just exciting watching the pros play and it was showed Live on tv.. i enjoyed myself tremendously.. and cm too! =)

2008-08-06T22:25:00.000+08:00

Extract From 路一直都在 - 陈奕迅

噢　我的　梦代表什么
又是什么让我们期盼

That's just life
寻找梦里的未来
That's just life
笑对现实的无奈

不能后退的时候
不再傍徨的时候
永远向前　路一直都在

看不清的路又算什么
看不清的梦又算什么
就算走到尽头又能算什么
能算什么

That's just life
徘徊到不再徘徊
That's just life
重来都不怕重来

没有选择的时候
不能选择的时候
永远向前　路一直都在

2008-08-02T23:24:00.000+08:00

tonite went down to the National Museum after hearing all the news tt they are having nite entertainment.. in the end.. no entertainment, but really pretty lights! they covered almost all of the front part of the building with colourful designs.. realli pretty..

we also went in to walk ard looking at the free displays.. this time round they showed a lot of photos taken from the past like 1930s to 1980s.. all the ppl in the photos look very vibrant.. but cm said "wad this photo is so old, all the kids inside aleadi ah gong n ah ma.." then i suddenly felt very overwhelmed with this understanding tt life is short.. insignificant actually, and we all cannot beat against Time. As Time goes by, we'll all be gone..

therefore, life is too precious to be wasted in misery and self-pity.. i shd try to enjoy every moment of it.. =)

2008-07-24T22:45:00.001+08:00

my face white as sheet and dark circles dark as night... ugly..

i am so freaking tired.. will this realli make me a better person.. i think juz become a old hag wif lots of wrinkle and eye bags.. urgh.. and i'm getting fatter n fatter!! *cries* and my mind is cluttered wif stuff to worry abt.. i wan a peaceful mind..

ytd was our 999 day (online calculator! hee), but we spent it at hospital.. almost from fri we were there every nite.. veri tired but at least now everyone is relax dat everything's fine. realli, nthg's more impt than ur health..

however, i still received a pleasant surprise.. he sent flowers to my office! and i was so busy with meeting diff trs n VP etc that i wasnt in office when it was delivered.. den when i went back to my desk i was so engrossed in telling my staff abt what to do that i completely missed the bouquet on the table until i had to put smthg down on the desk.. and i stupidly asked "why are there flowers?" when i already knew who it was from.. so happy!! altho i was still crazily busy for the rest of the day, i was buzzing around the office wif excitement and happiness.

i am a lucky girl =)

2008-07-20T23:07:00.000+08:00

things juz havent been so smooth this yr.. will i be able to smell freedom one day?

cm is not having it good either.. these few days he has to do his fyp and met quite a few obstacles, yet at the same time he is needed by his parents at work... in the end he is oso quite tired out..

but i know almost everyone has their own kind of worries and problems.. it's all part of life.. hopefully after this ups and downs, we will all become more mature and better persons.. and of cuz our bond stronger.. =)

2008-07-19T00:09:00.000+08:00

i'm back n fighting! sats need to work, so what? over-stressed, so what?!

today the new vp said to me, "when u r thinking abt a problem u muz think through it from the 1st step till the last step."

no offence but i wanted to laugh in her face. i normally have abt 5 to 6 problems at the back of my mind at any point of time. what i do is to think of the 1st step and last step for all of them, distribute the work out to either myself or other clerks with instructions for only 1st step and then think of step 2 or step 3 when the jobs starts getting back one by one. at the same time other jobs start coming in and i have to think of step one for them as and when they come in. i dun have the luxury of T-I-M-E! as wad cm's dad says, prioritizing becomes the most important skill and the person who pesters me the most have the highest priority!! it's so true that i didnt even realise it for a fact until it was spoken.. zzz

the new vp has no idea what she is getting into, does she..

anyway, had another emotional struggle for the past week.. in the end, i finally told myself to juz try my best, dun feel so upset when things go wrong.. work is work, dun put all ur heart into it.. u will feel all drained and sad when it is not recognised.. anyway this is short term for me.. why shd i make myself so miserable? i can quit anytime i wan.. no point antagonising myself over this..

anyway! i am thinking of perming my hair this time.. if u know of any good and cheap salons, let me know~

tired.. gg to sleep.. zzz..

2008-07-10T20:26:00.000+08:00

my insomnia is coming back.. for days i havent been able to sleep.. onli managed to sleep like 3 hrs.. ytd couldnt take it anymore n took the sleeping pill.. only it wasnt called sleeping pills, it's called "sedative"..

i like to think that i have a good life.. i have a healthy family, parents not divorced or ill like some families.. my r/s with my sis is veri good unlike some siblings who always fight.. i have a bf who cares a lot for me, i have a stable job and earning quite alright considering i only have degree.. everything in my life seems to be going well and good.

but i cant handle work stress.. i dont know if the amt of work and stress is realli considered high, or am i just being weak? who can define how much a person can be stretched? i feel so stifled under all the stress.. at nite my heart beats fast and nervously.. i couldnt settle down at all.. cant put my mind at ease..

all nite long all i could think of are these:
will i fail to meet the expectations? if i wan to quit, will it affect my future career in other ministries? if i dun quit, how shd i survive? if i quit, will i be able to find a job? if i quit, will i be seen as a useless person? if i stay, will my insomnia get worse and worse? i dun wan to be under so much stress but i dun wan to quit the job. talk to my boss abt this? tried but he keeps adding on to the stress. i am so tired.. physically and mentally.. can i still go on? can i take a break? do i deserve a break? wad if i spend all my money? i like working near to my home. i like seeing the children. but i dun like the work nature. but then again, i can still take it, cant i? or, i cant? wad do i wan? i wan to quit, but i wan to stay. quit stay quit stay quit stay quit stay quit stay

anyway, right now i juz feel like such a useless person who cant take stress. a lot of ppl had to work under huge stress, and they still cope. why cant i?

一双闪着泪光的眼睛
要多努力才能把雨看成星星 yes pls tell me how much harder i need to try..
握住我手　但别给我同情
执着的人要从倔强　寻找勇气

好像很近　瞬间又远离
很难实现才叫梦想　才要决心 - my exact feelings now..
~~我们终于一起　来到这里~~ - cuz havent reached our goal yet..
当我激动不能言语　把我抱紧

我们隔着　一颗心的距离
有笑有哭地去回忆
夏天秋天　纯真蜕变的电影
会是一辈子做不腻的事情

静静隔着　一颗心的距离
交换最真实的情绪
庆幸　太不勇敢的纪念日里
你曾经　给我多重要的鼓励 - really thankful for having someone who catches me as i fall..

我想说　没有你的生命
像没有歌词的旋律
就算可以　很美很好听
也少了意义少了确定

一双闪着泪光的眼睛
要多努力才能把雨看成星星 ...

2008-06-30T22:42:00.000+08:00

sorry for my incoherent post today.. am sleepy on flu drugs now..

today was lousy.. supposed to be the start of P1 registration, meeting abt EV feedback, and my late shift day. and i had to fall sick.. stupid flu virus. but the good thing is dat cm stayed at home wif me the whole day.. making it nice to be sick sometimes.. haha..

anyway, sat morning went to sem park for our sch's family day.. it was realli nice.. better than wad i expected.. even the food i ordered dat morning was good! no complaints this time =) and Jo brought Muffin!

Muffin was a dog who lost its way.. one day, it strayed into our pri sch and sat beside the security guard. the guard ignored it (common reaction to a stray..) then it seems dat this poor little fella couldnt take it anymore and ran onto the middle of the road and just sat down. the guard tot the poor thing looked so sad, could it be committing suicide?? and so he quickly carried the dog safely into the sch again. this time, he tied it with a rope.

then in comes me, reporting to work as usual at 8.30am.. heard someone called me and asked, "would u like a pet?" and i saw this realli realli cute doggie, which looked so sad at dat moment my heart melted almost instantaneously. But i couldnt keep a oet.. my mum wouldnt allow it! I called Jo to come n look, and she decided to bring it home. her daughter named it Muffin, and we all thot it was veri suitable for it. =)

so on sat, Jo brought it along.. cm n i brought it for a little jog ard the park. but jo said she cou;dnt keep it too cuz it bit her son and husband.. so sad.. decided not to bring it to spca cuz they actualli put the animals to sleep after 3 days. i cant send it to die.. so instead i suggest we brought it to an animal shelter.. but the shelter was filled with huge fierce dogs.. we couldnt bear to leave it there.. so jo brought it home again..

the interesting thing is dat we realised dat Muffin must have led a pretty good life before! he refuses doggie biscuits but jumps at ham. he hops into cm's car with ease when the door was opened, and was ready to come out at the sound of the door being opened. he even had a favourite spot in the car to sleep in.. obviously this doggie had a good life before he got lost! butwe suspect the previous owners abandoned him.. cuz when we found him, he looked like he had been straying for quite sometime.. and we put adverts in newspapers too but no one called to collect..

pls Muffin... pls behave.. really hope dat u can fit into thif family and continue to have a good life!

2008-06-22T23:44:00.001+08:00

Jun Hols are over.. boo hoo so fast.. from tml onwards there's going to be screaming children and crazy parents again.. plus jul has no public hols at all.. until Aug... the only perk is the bonus ^_^ and i have a slight increment starting jul cuz i've been there for one yr already! wow.. one yr aleadi.. so fast.. jul actualli is quite impt.. it's the start of P1 registration, my 1 yr anniversary as an AM, and me n cm's 999th day anniversary! haha quite bo liao.. like this oso anniversary.. but fun ma.. and so qiao, it's the same day as my work anniversary..

today cm n me n my sis went out together to watch "Get Smart".. veri hilarious show.. laugh until got tears.. lol.. i tried putting on the fake eyelashes that me n connie n xiang bot together, but it looked too fake and ugly.. 3 pairs for $10.. cheap stuff.. zzz.. in the end i wore my sis's ones.. dun really like the feeling of fake eyelashes, so in the end oso took them out.. haha..

juz random photos: this is drawn by my sch's HOD MT as a gift for staff retreat.. very nice of her.. cuz she drew for whole of her MT department teachers and for us EAS.. and she draws veri prettily too~ sometimes it's liitle acts like these that really touches me and allows me to be able to stay on there longer..

and finally, i bot my ver 5 tamagotchi.. this version is called the FamiTama, cuz u can raise a family in it.. nthg much la.. but veri cute as usual.. more animations as well.. at 1st i bot a nice pink one, but it was spoilt so i had to go back n exchange.. den they ran out of that pink ones!!! and i had to settle for this white one.. haiz it is still cute la.. but i would realli prefer that pink one.. sobs..

well, cant wait for National day to be here.. not dat i'm patriotic or wadever, juz cant wait for it to be holidays again.. zzz..

2008-06-17T22:19:00.000+08:00

whenever i have frens who make remarks like "admin in a pri sch? shd be quite slack right..." i feel a bit hurt.. but i can't blame them. b4 i joined the sch, dats wad i tot too.. office in a pri sch shd be quite easy to handle.. all small kids.. wad could be so hard? and trs teaching pri sch kids shd all have a heart of gold too.. so i'll have some pretty friendly colleagues as friends. however, the stress of an AM can only be understood by a fellow AM.. especially in our cluster..

also, my relatives seem to think that only O level clerks work as admin in schs.. where got degree holder go work as admin in sch.. but the thing is, there really is such a job! in fact, in the whole of S'pore, there's abt 300++ pri schs, so there's only abt 400+ pri sch AMs (cuz some schs have 2), so it's quite a specific niche, but also quite unfamiliar to most ppl.

but i tell myself everyday.. the person i shd answer to is myself. i dun need to give anybody else an answer. even if they dun understand, i shouldnt feel hurt or even bothered. cuz they are probably as stressed as me already, and if i were talking abt their jobs after having a bad day, i would also probably be thinking, "How can their job be as stressful as mine? They shd try doing my job then they will know how stress it is.." and etc etc etc. u know how it will lead to.

in fact, a lot of trs admit that the job of an AM seems very slack to them, and a lot of AMs also think that trs have an easier time. I have a colleague who was like this. she was a teacher, then she felt too stressed, and she tot her sch's AM was having an easy time n also earning good pay, so she became an AM. now she's complaining that she's mistaken and both tr's and AM's jobs are like shit. the grass is always greener on the other side.. if u always compare, there'll be no end.

and so i tell myself, do not envy the teachers for having sch holidays and ridiculously high pay (but i cant help but still feel envious~~ haha..) cuz they have their own kind of pressure and difficulties as well. and also, even if my relatives are not proud of my job, (and even tho i dun really like this job too haha), i still feel proud that I am once an AM. cuz this job actually gives u lots of exposure (once u enter u are same level as HOD, good enough exposure?), lots of on the job training, allows a Life Sci graduate like me to learn finance skills and to some extent, HR and recruitment skills, and unlike any other organisation, allows me to be in a managerial post with clerks working under ur management. for someone who is so inexperienced like me, this is really good for portfolio and i oso get a headstart in learning people management skills (also learn how to siam politics skills)..

if so good, then why am i on the search for a new job? haha.. cuz even though it is a very good position, i feel that it is not suitable for me.. i guess i prefer a job that is more focused.. if i can find one, den it'll be really good.. if cannot.. i guess i'll juz tolerate for one more yr.. den contract will end.. >_< pls arrive soon~~!!

2008-06-10T22:33:00.000+08:00

a very touching song.. and to be sung by a kid just makes it all the more powerful.
i wish that there are only frens and no enemies in the world. perhaps we can start by accepting our own enemies as frens first.

Declan Galbraith~Tell Me Why

In my dreams children sing
A song of love for every boy and girl
The sky is blue the fields are green
And laughter is the language of the world
Then I wake and all I see is a world full of people in need

Tell me why, does it have to be like this
Tell me why, is there something I have missed
Tell me why, I don't understand
When somebody needs somebody
We don't give a helping hand
Tell me why

Every day I ask myself what I have to do to be a man
Do I have to stand and fight (No need, just conc on growing taller XD NOT PART OF LYRICS!)
To prove to everybody who I am
Is that what my life is for
To waste in a world full of war

Tell me why, does it have to be like this
Tell me why, is there something I have missed
Tell me why, I don't understand
When somebody needs somebody
We don't give a helping hand
Tell me why
Tell me why
Tell me why
Just tell me why

Can someone tell us why we cannot just be friends
Why Why.

tml new vp coming. new boss now. a bit scary. sigh.. anyway, wont stay long. i scared for wad.. i so young. go out got loads of ppl wan to hire me. correct or not?!? T_T i will survive~!!

2008-06-04T23:40:00.000+08:00

havent been blogging in ages.. this is kind of like a late entry for my own memory sake.. haha.. anyway, last sat went for kk's wedding.. it was really fun as i saw lots of ex-ajco ppl.. like some kind of big gathering.. haha.. the food was really great. for more details, u can refer to js's facebook.. think he got the whole menu posted up. haha.. really happy to see my senior getting married. hope he will have a everlasting and happy marriage!

some lousy attempt to make it look retro.. but it turned out awful and i'm too tired to do anything else to it. haha.

no more photos.. =( cuz js was the unofficial photographer of our table. so i could concentrate on eating. haha..

all the best to the newly weds~~

2008-06-04T22:33:00.000+08:00

i'm in post-holiday-syndrome, denial state. In denial that this is reality and i need to work. bleah.

anyway, langkawi was fun.. snorkelling was fun too, except that i was utterly grossed out by the dozens and dozens of digusting worm-like sea cucumbers. i nv knew that one can scream so loud under water. when the tide went down and they were juz inches away from my feet, cm was amazed at my sudden increase in swimming speed (and screaming level).

getting away from the heat, enjoying a drink by the sea..

saw these interesting patterns on the sandy beaches.. they were created by little brown sand crabs who push balls of sands out from a tiny hole and plce the balls of sand in this unique patter. so interesting..

Langkawi's underwater world is quite good.. i think better than our underwater world.. haha..
penguins love~!
then wanted to take cable up to their tall tall mountains.. but as they were afraid of thunderstorms.. we were not allowed to go up.. the clouds were already covering the mountain top.. so bo bian.. had to change plans..
waterfalls.. very high and grand.. too bad our camera were not good enough..

went to pulau payar for snorkelling..
the beach was really breath-taking.. the water was so green and pretty.. like all sparkling under the sun.. played ard with our LG phone's panaroma view.. 3 photos combined to form one picture. it's quite nice, but the thing is i cant get all three to be of same brightness as the camera auto adjusts the brightness for each photo separately.. anyway, it's for fun.. and i really wanted to capture how pretty the view was... and how wide the sea looked to me..

i wish holiday was here again.

2008-05-23T23:45:00.000+08:00

recently there's lots of publicity from the sg sports smthg tt calls children to go outside n play... and i thought, "you should have seen it coming.."

when i was in pri sch, everyone else played hop-scotch or skipping ropes or catching or any weird games anyone can come up with.. we loved the sch field, neighbourhood playgrounds with sand and even invented block-hide-and-seek, meaning we ran up and down the whole block, hiding in whichever storeys we like.. we'd go to the field and pulled at all the funny plants we see. and my proudest moment was when i caught a huge bright green grasshopper and presented it to my Form Teacher (until i stupidly put it in a glass jar and covered it with paper. it ate its way through in 5 seconds, hopping away with its butt laughing at me)

(ok i made dat up. i didnt see it run away with its butt laughing at me. but it did escape pretty soon.)

when i was in p3, trs started encouraging us to use computers. we had to do maths qns and type the sentence "the fox jumped over a log" or smthg lidat into the black screen with colourful dots and lines. we had to type /autoexec into the black screen whenever the program screwed up and the screen hung.

den p4 or p5, cant rem, someone brought a "CD-ROM" to sch and inserted into the sch library's newest computer. all of the student librarians (including me) squatted ard that man n watched as the screen started playing colourful animations like cartoons while teaching English lessons. It was like MAGIC! everybody fought arm and leg to be the next one to do the lesson on the computer. i felt excited even when i dragged the mouse over to click 'Next Question'. dat was how mountain tortoise i was o_o even so, everyone still much preferred a senseless chasing/running game at the playground to staying in front of the computer..

we oso used to read the YG (Young Generation) and followed closely the stories of Vinny the Vampire.. some of us even made pen-pals from the last section of the magazine, where ppl write things like "I am 8 and I like Barbie dolls/Power Rangers. Write to me at Blk 222, Street AAA, and be my pen-pal!" etc..

in p6 or sec 1, if not wrong, someone introduced the mIRC to us. we even know IRC stood for Internet Relay Chat. That's how obsessed we were, considering that some of us didnt even know wad does BKE stand for. we would go online to find someone to chat with almost everyday. this craze carried on till my JC times.. all of us had a cyber-fren, or cyber-girlfren or cyber-boyfren at some point of time. u could have a boyfren AND a cyber-bf at the same time, and u wouldnt be two timing. puleease, wad can u do online(at dat time)?

then we had ICQ, then MSN came along n devoured the whole world. but even with all this cyber-craze, guys were still crazy abt football after school, and girls were still going for ice-cream to have those 'girl-talks'..

but now, it's completely different. so many free and challenging games available online. parents want to keep their eyes on their children all the time anyway, so isnt it better to have them in front of the home desktop? "come on, only children with lousy parents will run around and shout wildly like some ill-bred brat in the public playground. I wouldnt want to be caught dead with a child like dat. my child will be perfect, coming home after sch everyday. juz need to get him one maple card every month. haha."

and now the haha is back at them. they are now playing ads on tv to get children interested in the outside world again. to use their real legs to run instead of hitting the directional buttons on the keyboard to move the RPG magician character, to play real football instead of the football game on the computer/PSP/Wii and maybe, get into a real physical fight instead of playing Warcraft. hahaha.

i mean, come on, you really should have seen it coming!

2008-05-22T22:47:00.001+08:00

did i say i was going to do the dumbbells every day? x_x they are still in the same position as i last saw them the other day.. haha to me. bleah

every thursday is like cm's off day. he gets to play pool wif his pool cca in nus.. they play at places like bugis and now jalan besar (i think..) and every time it's thursday, he's so happy and excited. i can almost feel the air buzzing ard him as he waves bye bye and drives off after dinner. damn sometimes i am jealous of his pool cue, which to me is juz a wodden stick. hahaha..

anyway, today had been a crazy day at work.. a lot of trs n students, including P himself, are flying over to China tonite.. so everyone's trying to get some last min work done... and i had some pressing matters to settle as well.. sigh if everyday was like today, my brain will die! >_<

anyway, being left alone at home, i finished a chic novel, Shopaholic & Baby, which is realli cool. it's not veri intelligent kind of material.. juz light-hearted, short of like a drama series, where everything is just so draaaaaama.. u know that kind. but here n there, i must say the author left some pleasantries.. so it is still quite a clever piece of work.

argh!!! boss called me on hp!!! still dun like ppl to call me after working hrs.. sigh but this is how the ppl in my sch work =( luckily it wasnt anything impt. ok shall stop blabbling...

2008-05-21T23:58:00.000+08:00

it's an old song from Mr Children... my fav song when i was in uni.. watching the MTV now still makes me feel like dropping a tear or two.. think everyone shd be able to relate to the lyrics or mtv one way or another.. but after dat, we all gotta move on! =)

Translation Kurumi

tell me, Kurumi
What do you see looking at this city
How do I look to you now?

tell me, Kurumi
When I start to hear the sarcasm in someone's kindness
What am I to do?

Remembering only the good times
though it makes me feel like I've aged a sum
But you gotta be one of the gears
trying to get turning
You can have only as much despair as you have hope.
but still, my heart trembles at the thought of the future
'what's going to happen?'
I try to imagine.

tell me, Kurumi
If time will eventually wash it all away
then life must be a simple affair.

tell me, Kurumi
since then I haven't cried once
but, neither have I had many good laughs

Somewhere I did up the buttons wrong,
by the time I notice, there's one button leftover
and similarly one button hole, in need of a button
If you find meaning in finding someone then fine
you can have only as many partings
as you do encounters
still my heart trembles at the thought of hope.
everytime I encounter a crossroads
I'll fret over which way to go but...

Even though I want more than I have now
I sing for an unchanging love
that's what makes the gears turn
with the burden of more than I need,
making a dull grinding sound
you can have only as much despair as you do hope
and still my heart trembles
at the thought of the future
"what's going to happen?"
let's imagine
you can have only as many partings
as you do encounters
and still my heart trembles at the thought of hope
guess there's no turning back,
so I'll go on, to a road without you.

2008-05-21T22:44:00.001+08:00

time flies.. the long weekend is long over =<

today is wed.. went to JP to collect our air tix to langkawi.. we were reminded of our trip to aussie last dec... how i dragged my heavy luggage to take bus to mrt and then to airport... all the while complaining abt how heavy it is.. and how was i supposed to carry it for the whole trip.. even made cm promise tt he will help me carry whenever i'm tired... blah blah blah.. and then we were back. zzz..

now we are on another short trip to langkawi~~ altho it is short trip.. still cost some $$$ and i am feeling so broke.. no choice la.. i guess after this trip, we'll not be gg anywhere else.. we'll save save save until he goes to aussie for his further studies!! no more expensive meals, no more lavish spending on clothes, no more no more!! T_T

yesterday received news that another AM quitting.. he juz joined for 6 mths.. guess he felt tt the job is not suitable for him.. den today again was informed tt a tr wans to quit.. oso veri new.. think she went thru quite a hard time cuz no training.. i guess onli la.. anyway, she says is for her child, dats why she wans to quit.. so i juz wanna wish her all the best.. omg i feel so old.. i actualli worked long enuff to see ppl come n go.. did i realli work a long time or does working realli sucks? haha..
there r times when i still feel like giving up.. hope i can last longer.. a bit more... one yr anni is almost here.. take a look at the increment b4 making rash decisions... =p

cm is gg to start on his fyp too.. gonna be so busy tt he cant spend all his time on me liao.. sobs sobs.. but work is more impt.. esp if he wans to do masters.. jiayou jiayou!!! let's all jiayou tog~!

recently sis veri busy.. cuz of her intern n then she has a performance coming up.. hope she wun overstress herself!!

2008-05-19T00:07:00.000+08:00

i'm loving this long weekend~~ =D

fri nite went for fish & co dinner wif his family.. the best part was the choc milkshake~

sat morning went to gym to do some exercise.. my arms are aching now.. T_T but cm veri nice and massage for me today.. now feeling much better! i muz do more exercise.. all my muscles are becoming like toufu lidat.. shaking uncontrollably when i exercise.. ugly...

then today,after having breakfast wif my parents, i met cm n we went to orchard. sang ktv from 2pm to 5.30pm.. ex.. =( but nvm.. enjoyed ourselves.. after a quick dinner (shared a plate of char siew rice cuz not hungry..), we watched Speed Racer. not bad.. the animations were quite cool.. the races were quite exciting too. althou very cartoon-ish, i love the way it looks a bit retro (altho its supposed to be futuristic haha) after dat we went to grab a bite then came home.. and he helped me massage my arms somemore.. i juz took out my neglected red dumbbells again.. i muz try to make it a habit to do some toning exercise everyday!! my arms are becoming flabby to a disgusting extent!!

realli enjoyed myself today.. spent almost the whole day at orchard.. havent done this in the longest time. when i was a teenager, i could stay at orchard from noon till nite, n still dun wanna go home.. but now, i guess i'm getting old, no more stamina.. i always felt like going home after juz abt 2 hours of shopping.. i definitely need to get back in shape...

2008-05-11T22:46:00.000+08:00

How to Play

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. No cheating.
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.
5. Tag 5 people.

How are you feeling today?

从台北到北京 - by Shi Xing Hui
er.. juz went Escape at Downtown east.. feeling kinda happy n excited so i guess this catchy song is quite relevant.. haha..

Will you get far in life? 爱爱 by Gary

how to relate to my life... does it mean my greatest achievement in my life is my love? hmm not bad too i guess.. but i hope to achieve much in my career too!! bleah..

How do your friends see you? 触摸 - Chen Wei Lian

My frens are very touched by my wonderful frenship~~ heeheehee..

i do treasure my frens very much..

Will you get married? 不需理由 by Chen Shi Wei

Getting married dun need to haf reason? er... i guess the song is abt not needing reason to love someone.. so i guess it means i will get married?

What is your best friend’s theme song? Way back into Love - Music and Lyrics

well.. perhaps bestest of best frenship still do turn sour.. is there a way back? mabe.. but hard..

What is the story of your life? 男人女人 by Xu Ru Yun and a guy

My life is NOT just abt 男人女人 definitely!! no link at all hahaha...

男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
女人女人我答应做个好人
我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生

but i guess i was looking for someone i could love without being hurt =) and i've found it! hope it will last forever.. and i hope everyone ard me will find theirs too!! yes u will! =)

What was high school like? 如果你也听说 - Zhang Hui Mei

gossips all ard?

突然发现站了好久不知道要往哪走 - i was certainly lost during JC..

跌跌撞撞才明白了许多 - well true as well.. learnt alot in jc..

What’s in store for this weekend? 国王游戏 - Xiao Zhu

国王有让你happy的权力
让这命令不不不要停
国王游戏
所有规则都由我来定
输赢我都爱你
就让这游戏再再再继续

er..realli no idea how to link.. except the last sentence which i dun wan weekend to end. hee

How’s your life going? 你是我的答案 by Fan Fan

而你是我的答案最确定的答案
像走在一条花开的路不会错过美满
缘份转几个弯　证明我们不会走散
学会用眼神牵手那才浪漫

你是我的答案不变的答案
有了自己的天使　做什麽都显得勇敢
顺着梦的沿岸　只有收获没有遗憾
被握着手心看的未来　永远蔚蓝

=)

How can you get ahead in life? 梦里花

古老的巨石神像
守护神秘时光
清澈的蓝色河流
指引真实方向
穿越过风沙
划破了手掌
坚定着希望
去闯
some ancient mystique force will guide my path with a magic light i guess. haha..

What’s the best thing about your friends? 窗外

er.. my frens are juz outside the windows? haha..

What song will they play at your funeral? 彩虹的微笑

天空是绵绵的糖
就算塌下来又怎样
深呼吸甩开悲伤
生气想爆炸就大声唱

彩虹是微笑的脸
难过就抬起头大声唱

How does the world see you? 头号甜心 - Zhang Shao Han

你是头号甜心没错
你最爱我没错

yea the world loves me! =D

Will you have a happy life? 他是跳蚤 - by Dai Ai Ling

I guess i need all these qualities b4 i can haf a happy life!

別憐憫別心虛別心軟別回憶
要勇氣要自信要小心要用力

Do people secretly lust after you? 累格 by Dai Ai Ling

你說　不是所有愛情
都能夠釀成一首　流行歌
我說　不是所有分手
都能夠再虛偽的　做朋友

i guess this means NO.. haha but it's a great song..

How can you make yourself happy? 约好的以后 by Cai Chun Jia

dunno how to link again.. er let's look at lyrics...

我看见风在你头上留下小树叶
忍不住抚你白发容颜
你疼我眼角慢慢生起美丽的线
大树下抱我的肩

ok means i need everlasting love! haha..

What should you do with your life? 爱的天使 by Jolin and a guy..

er.. i muz somehow become an angel of love... cupid?

Will you ever have children? 穷开心

HUH? means i'll be happy for nthg? wad it means? no idea even if i look at the lyrics...

What song would you strip to? 庆幸有你爱我

not a strip song.. definitely.. but i dun haf any clubbing songs.. haha..

What does your mum think of you? 想念你的歌

my mum misses me?

What is your deep, dark secret? 对的人

k i haf limited songs.. repeated singer aleadi..haha..

What is your mortal enemy’s theme song? 对你有感觉

huh?

What’s your personality like? 精舞门

i wanna know 你行不行
you gonna know
别怀疑你自己的本领
you gonna know 我是冠军
you gonna know we got to show

What song will be played at your wedding? 你只有一个 by Fan Fan

不管如何都不要忘记　你是最好的
要相信你绝对有幸福的资格

你只有一个　独一无二

nice song to end this..

last part is tagging.. but not sure who reads my blog.. so.. tags whoever reads this =)

so drowsy now cuz of the cough med.. zzz.. better go sleep.. nitez..

2008-05-10T00:48:00.000+08:00

Super cute song by Cyndi!! Very funny lyrics but actualli quite true la.. haha. i muz learn this song n sing in ktv!!! yea~ XD the rap part sounds so jolin.. or jay chou.. unlike cyndi.. but the rest of the song is juz her style. rather she skip the rap..

王心凌 - Hihi Byebye
专辑：红心凌

你生气来像火灾我哭起来就像水灾
我们两个人加起来刚好就变成无害
你喜欢喝冰牛奶我喜欢喝热牛奶
你的冰块加到我的牛奶就温暖起来
你喜欢走左边因为你说会有安全感
我喜欢走右边因为我觉得比较浪漫
你睡起来是早上我睡起来是夜晚
我们一起翻脸一加一等于是零鸭蛋

我跟你说hihi 你跟我说byebye
我们看似奇怪其实默契一直在
我跟你说byebye 你跟我说hihi
你说奇不奇怪我们见怪要更怪
三轮车跑得快上面坐着老太太
老太太去拜拜小猴子们都好嗨
Rap：
我说ByeBye 其实就在说Hi
背朝着你走绕着地球一周
走到你的背后才跟你说HI
就连老太太也说真有道理
你往东走我就往西走一直走到最后
我们在地球在另外一头
一起手牵手小猴子都拍手

hihihihi oh~ byebyebye
hihihihi oh~ byebyebye
你说奇不奇怪我们见怪要更怪
我跟你说hihi 你跟我说byebye
你把双手张开我就把你捆起来
我跟你说byebye 你跟我说hihi
一点都不奇怪因为实在怪可爱
小老鼠上灯台偷吃灯油下不来
叫妈妈它走来叽哩咕噜说拜拜

2008-05-07T22:16:00.000+08:00

on sunday, me n cm went to marina sq for dinner n movie. we decided to haf our dinner at MOF.. the items on the menu all looked good.. we ordered cold sake, ramen and tempura ebi.. yummy~

our cold sake arrived glamorously with one waiter carrying a humongus bottle of sake and the girl carrying the glass on a tray.. then the guy started pouring the sake into the glass.. n pouring.. n pouring.. then it overflowed!! i was like "oh no!" n my eyes were big. but he continued pouring like he didnt realised it was full.. i glanced flusteredly at cm. n his eyes were as confused as i was. the sake flowed into the box that was holding the glass until it was filled juz to the brim. "phew..." i was heaving a sigh... until i realised.. dats wad he had meant to do in the 1st place!! why was i so worried for him?! o_O
then i asked cm.. "eh.. lidat how to drink.. drink from cup 1st or box 1st.."
he looked back at me n said "can drink the box one meh.."

he had no clue too.

haha.. after staring at each other, trying to look calm and wise to others (look at picture above again) i decided we shd drink from the glass 1st, then pour out from the box to drink too. they poured the sake into the box probably to keep the sake cold for a longer time. cm was saying "so wasteful.. if chinese ppl, sure put in ice water onli. why waste the wine.." haha.. jap ppl like to be fussy abt their food ma.. chi ppl oso can be fussy too. rite?

anyway, i ordered miso ramen.. not bad.. the egg was nice too!
as nice as the one dat weilin told me abt in Central Clarke Quay.. tho i think the Central one is nicer.. see the egg yolk? it was not fully cooked altho the egg white was.. and it was still quivering as i brought it to my gigantic n hungry mouth...

yummy~!

anyway, last wed, after visiting our colleague who was in hospital, we went to shop a bit.. well cant blame me.. need a dress for kk's wedding ma!! haha.. =p anyway, i bot a dress (which i kinda regret now) from this shop at Novena, Square 2, called the "Fashionact Wearart Gall" .. totally spoil my day! they keep hagging me to buy their overly priced clothes..

well i saw a dress which looked quite nice.. tho it was also pricey ($69.90 for a tube dress...) the material was the silky kind.. so i tot it was not bad.. but after i said i wanted to buy it, they still keep asking me to buy the other dress i had tried on earlier on. the cashier even almost wanted to juz key it in but i exclaimed "No I really dun wan dat dress!" then she cancelled it. really ridiculous!!

they told me that they do not have stock for dat dress now. and the display one had a large mark over the front, so i don't want it either.. they said they will transfer a new one to their branch at Causeway Point.. but i had to pay the full amount 1st.. i had no problems as i juz wanted to get away as soon as possible. but Jo went on to ask, "if dun haf stock anymore den wad happen to her money." den they say they will refund.. but now it's been a week n they havent call... n i juz saw on the receipt it says "Goods sold are non refundable".. T_T i'm so gonna call to complain tml.. anyway, this is the dress dat gave so much trouble.. TT_TT well cant really see n my face looks damn weird. anyway, realli hope they will keep their promise n give me that dress (altho i dun realli wan it now but hey I haf my principles)!!!

2008-05-01T22:50:00.000+08:00

working is scary. i can nv be sure who to believe.. i hear different stories from different sides. and i cant tell which is true which is fake.. sigh.. anyway the temp staff resigned.. she went ard telling ppl abt how she was wrongly accused of smthg she didnt do. in the end, boss released her without the one month's notice. in a way i indirectly caused it to happen cuz i mention to a hod dat she was telling other trs. n the hod told the P too. but to just ask her to leave str away, isnt it a bit too harsh? although i must admit that P is veri good with giving bad news.. in a very diplomatic way.. it all sounded reasonable.. he decided to release her early bcuz we r not so busy during exam period.. n he was also very courteous n thanked her for her service. but she went out of the room n str away told a different story to another staff. dat staff later on told me that she said P was veri direct n blunt. only then i realised she is truly the one who had been twisting everyone's words around all along.. i had been so confused tt i almost got myself in to trouble.. sigh i realli got a lot to learn..

after work, me n jo then went to ttsh to visit mdm G. as she fell twice the previous nite.. seems quite serious. hope she get well soonish.. then jo told me abt wad she had learnt abt the new tr, Mr W... seems like he's not as carefree as he had described himself to be. i guess everyone has their fair share of problems. just want to wish him all the best.

today is Labour Day, so didnt haf to work..stayed at cm's place wif his whole family.. felt lousy the whole day cuz dunno wad kind of job do i wan to do.. i do not wish to become a job hopper.. wad exactly am i good at..?

2008-04-28T23:07:00.000+08:00

@_@

u'll nv believe wad happened. I'll nv complain abt Monday blues again (for as long as i can last..). If I had slept in a bit later today, i would probably be having a broken leg and arm right now. My home has a lot of the ceiling structures the older generation called the "Corning" which i think is short for "cornering".. well.. one wall-length of it fell off onto my bed!! lucky both me n my sis were up n not in the room. so scary!!

the identical corning in my sis's room:

what it looks like in my room:

feeling very scared, i had cm remove all the rest of the corning in my room as well..
he almost had one piece fell onto his feet.. luckily it missed his feet by an inch or so... my heart almost stopped. if it really crashed onto his feet, i'll be the biggest criminal on earth for getting my bf hurt.. juz b4 his exams somemore.. for a moment i was so shocked i couldnt move.. and he juz continue to remove the rest like nthg happened.. -_- really cant imagine wad could haf happened..

so thankful that nobody is hurt! T_T

2008-04-27T01:06:00.000+08:00

wad happened in the past 2 weeks? piles n piles of work.. and EV... had 4 interviews n i hope i did not let my sch down by saying stupid things.. sigh. realli stressful.. but it's finally over, n now it's cm's n my sis's turn to be stressed cuz it's exams!!

sigh feeling quite emo recently.. mabe cuz more stress n tired.. so i haf to start counting my blessings again to remind myself that i am lucky in some ways too.

My Work
1. my job teaches me a lot
2. i haf some nice colleagues that i can talk with
3. the sch is within walking distance
4. i am earning money n can contribute to family
5. i sent emails for job applications n i got replies for interviews, even tho in the end i find them to be unsuitable. this shows that i still haf value!

People ard me
1. my family members n frens are all healthy
2. i have a warm home to return to everyday after shitty work
3. i haf the best bf in the world <3 who tries his best to cheer me up whenever i'm down no matter how tired or busy he is..
4. best of all, i'm loved by them all =)

but i cant help but feel down.. not juz cuz of work.. but bcuz my future seems so blurry.. unknown to me n i'm afraid.. when will everything start to become clearer?

uggh.. i shd juz sleep it away..

2008-04-15T23:15:00.001+08:00

i was nominated together with other colleagues to go for N95 respirator training at E Sec Sch. at 1st i was quite sianz cuz it would take up so much of my time.. and i still wanted to take half day tml! i really could use the time to finish up some work 1st.. but anyway, it turned out quite fun.. we were taught how to wear the mask properly (which turned out to be a new mask from 3M, not N95 le..)

ta da~ me and my eas team~
BUT!!! i didn't know we were going to simulate a real senario.. they told us that they are going to spray some bitter chemicals into the air, and if we had worn the masks correctly, we should be quite safe... n i started regretting that i hadn't paid attention just now, and i did not mold the shape of the mask carefully.. cuz there's a wire strip to hold it in place on our noses.. T_T we tasted a bit of the chemical through breathing.. really veri bitter lo.. y they put us into gas chamber?!?

me looking very uncertain abt this.. and with the head hood, which they were going to spray the chemical into... but scared oso muz take photo.. i even strike a pose!
ahh.. here it comes... the uncle was furiously spraying the thing into the hood.. like at least 50 times.. i was so afraid to breathe.. he still ask me to breathe deeply with mouth!
luckily, i did manage to wear the mask properly. i didn't smell anything at all! i guess it's quite fun to learn this, but during a real emergency.. i think i will forget everything... haha..

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juz received some bad news from fren.. poor gal.. i really hope she is ok..

2008-04-14T17:24:00.000+08:00

so it's 5.24pm.. i'm sitting alone in the office i normally share with the OM. Almost everyone has left.. it's so quiet now that i feel kind of peaceful.

life is quite amazing, really. I think about this morning, when I was still complaining that it's only the start of a long week, and now it's about the end of a day. Last year I was anticipating my dec hols and now I have all the photos neatly in an album. When I think about how I felt before an event, how I felt during the event, and how I felt after the event, life seems almost miraculous. But I am quite impatient. I always can't wait for the event to:
a) happen faster
b) be over faster

i hate waiting... some ppl think that process is more important than results. But as I am so impatient, I don't often enjoy the process, i tend to look forward to results, if results equal rewards, dat is... but wad happens after the results? i dunno... start another process/journey and start hating it all over again? I hate myself sometimes for being the way I am. bcuz the way that I think makes my life miserable. If i am able to change my way of thinking, my attitude towards life and work and everything else..

i want to be strong and optimistic! but sometimes, i am really nothing more than an average soft-spoken, silly girl who only wants simple happiness.

this is really a senseless post. i dun blame u for wanting to knock my brains out of my head!

2008-03-31T22:46:00.000+08:00

today was an exceptional day.. cuz my P actually said since I'm so tied down with work, he's gg to get another HOD to be the SCC. Wad did i do to receive this 大恩大德? i almost couldn't believe my ears!

i am so touched!

how can i still feel like quitting when he's so nice?

mabe dats the point hor. aiya suan le.. haha..

the other day i watched The Bucket List. It's a story abt 2 old men who realised they are down with cancer. after slogging out almost 40years of their lives, they suddenly are left with onli 6 to 12 mths to live...so it's either they choose to spend the rest of their time in hospital with loads of medicine n surrounded by crying family members, or they can go n do the wildest things they can ever think of doing.. n they chose the latter. one of them died 1st, but he died kinda peacefully i think.. acceptance.. the other one lived a while longer.. n he managed to complete the list. it is a veri simple yet touching story. reminds me of the time i spent at the cancer centre.. it was also a place full of despair.. many of them couldnt accept their condition.. n u see them getting weaker n weaker as the months go past.. the chemo section was worse.. a whole stretch of patients having medicine pumped through their body as they laid there, bored with aching or stiff body.. most of them detest having to go through it. some even rather die than do chemo..
but strangely, some of the better times i had there were when i was talking to them. it makes my day if i managed to make one of them just a little less unhappy. also, once in a while i'd meet someone who is really optimistic. veri positive attitude towards life. it will also give me lots of motivation. if even they can live so vibrantly, there's no excuse for me not to!

2008-03-25T23:48:00.000+08:00

long weekend is over... wad a weekend.. but ytd i fell sick.. cuz ate too much on sunday.. but office ppl seem to think its funny when i tell them "i ate too much n got sick..." -_- haha.. but yea i love high tea. XD

anyway, it's nice to fall (just a little) sick once in a while, bcuz i get to take mc, and sleep in late.. and everyone will be especially nice to me :) but the bad thing is throughout the day i get calls from office "Lilian where is this, what is that?" haiz.. and today opened my mail, 47 mails!!! abt 5 from boss.. zzzz..

anyways, last friday i went to east coast's Big Splash.. Nothing at all leh!! so much hoo-haa, even put fireworks.. Boring de lo! Nthg to do at all... yet there was A LOT of ppl there, mostly families with their kids, some cute but mostly irritating =p think Sg parents have aleadi ran out of places to bring their kids to.. then went to watch Horton hears a Who by Dr Seuss. It is really very nice!! I like the story.. and their punchline "A person is a person, no matter how small". the whole story is just so simple and touching n funny. I think i laughed as hard as the little ang mo kid sitting in front of me.. haha.

y cant i be an author, who draws children stories.. and come up with bizarre and funny little tales like Dr Seuss.. and those Nightmare b4 Xms, Corpse Bride etc... n everyone juz loves it.. so cool.. of cuz i must be really good at drawing.. pen touch paper and a character juz creates itself out of ink..

yea keep on dreaming girl. u cant even draw a proper circle. T_T

keep hearing who found new job, who who quitted in search of better jobs. and i got my bonus.. shit it is peanuts lo!! i expected more.. >_< anyway, got my bonus le.. next one is in july.. still so far away.. think it will be good time to quit soon.. but i am held back by the nice aunties in the office who always feed me, weird teachers who always make me laugh, and boss's once-in-a-blue-moon random kindness to me. How?

I am one confused girl here. >_<

2008-03-19T22:44:00.001+08:00

this week has been a terrible week.. sigh but it's ending soon.. cant wait >_<

some interesting things in sch..
our gardener, who's really good with plants, grew some sweet potatoes and gave his harvest to the office! he is realli good.. so mrs K cooked porridge with the sweet potatoes.. so sweet of her! n so nice of uncle!

n then today this small little p1 kid came n, red watery eyes and sniffing away. asked him wad happened and he replied "i fell down.." so pitiful lidat.. so i brought him into sick bay n ask him to show me where is the scab.. in the end.. didnt even scratch his skin lo.. onli a bit reddish.. haha so cute.. so i juz put some antiseptic n put a plaster to make him feel better. he is soooo cute n tiny! lolz..

juz now we had a pre-syf concert.. where all the performing groups performed their syf pieces.. there were malay dance, indian dance, chi dance, choir, co, harmonica, angklung etc.. it's realli a good idea to have this pre-syf concert... gives the children a chance to perform to an audience b4 the actual competition.. they practised so hard.. also let parents to have a chance to watch their children's performance.. n so can see how the other cca groups are doing.. n it showcases the school's talents. after watching them, i suddenly feel very proud of our school... hope they can get wonderful results in syf~!

2008-03-16T22:28:00.000+08:00

i bot a mint green psp >_< am guilty of spending too much.. i promise to stop gg out for dinners and onli eat at home or at most kopitiams from now on! actualli i do spend quite a lot on food.. cm was saying recently i dun go coffeshops anymore.. only wan to go restaurants like sakae sushi etc. even though each meal may not be a lot, but if i do that everyday, it will add up to a huge amt.. so i muz 'jian2 tao3 jian2 tao3' (reflect) and try to change this bad habit!!

i got a really good explanation for my spenthrift behaviour one lor.. cuz everyday i drag myself to work.. den finally finish work le.. i juz wanna reward my tired self with some good food ma~ sigh but dats no reason to indulge myself in food that costs more than its real worth.. :( okok.. i muz find food dats good n cheap.. value for money!

speaking of food, i realli like the chilli crabs at casuarina road.. the stretch of shops wif the prata place and chinese hawker.. last one down the row of shops.. it is very very good~! :)

2008-03-15T00:43:00.001+08:00

http://www.jp.playstation.com/info/release/img/070717_psp2000j.jpg

the latest hottest gadget to haf in town.. psp! almost everyone has one nowadays... i recently bought it as v day gift for cm.. and now i feel like buying one for myself too.. but i juz bot a new hp~ and a new hard disk~ do i realli haf the money to spend?? haiz.. but realli feel like buying one cuz hard to always share wif him.. how how how..? ~~>_<~~

2008-03-13T23:26:00.000+08:00

argh.. recently juz dun haf the mood to work.. mabe bcuz of the rain... or mabe it's the march hols.. i juz cant settle down at work~! but i tried to clear some work during this quiet period...

our VP has left our sch to go for her studies to become a P.. she is so capable.. she has been working in MOE since when i was only 5 yrs old! and now she is becoming a P.. and she is the most beautiful boss i've ever seen! she's really tall, with long legs, and she dresses very well too. sigh my role model...

unlike me.. i'm juz an average girl.. nv was good at anything in particular.. and nv pretty.. in fact i think i'm ugly >_< i dun mind not being very smart, but in the working world, being average is juz not enough.. u need to be really quick n smart and good and eloquent..and it doesnt hurt to have a pretty face.. but none of them fits me..

and everyone else is talking abt finding a job which fits their passion or interests.. but i dun have any passion!! neither do i know wad i'm interested in.. i juz wan to have a job with pay tt's not too bad, nice colleagues and not too much OT.. to put it simply, juz another average job! i realli dun mind! mabe this whole manager role thingy is juz too big a hat 4 me.. i dun enuff brains to fill it T_T

ok.. i'm not getting anywhere with this ranting.. i muz remember.. 'leave the grouches, they will only pull u down!' ok good nite everyone...

2008-03-10T00:31:00.000+08:00

wad a nice day... aft tuition, went to zy's place to celeb xm's bday.. eat n talk n talk. my fav kind of outing =) then zy showed us a veri cute anime called moyashimon i think.. abt a guy who can see microbes as cute little things.. veri funny..

den went to watch leap years wif cm.. nice show.. with nice plot n nice songs.. veri touching.. but funny how the characters dun age at all even after 12 yrs.. lol.. they put a lot of chim quotes along the movie.. smthg abt one can change his own destiny, or it's in your own hands smthg lidat, another one is abt destiny happens on the path u took to avoid it.. den one more is mervin's nickname now: if u r not too long, i will wait my whole life. and i simply dun understand.. if u aleadi decided to wait ur whole life, den nthg is too long for u rite..? haha mabe got meaning but i juz dun get it ba.. =p

2008-03-08T23:46:00.000+08:00

wow... the crowd at IT fair show is realli no joke.. if u got breathing difficulties, u better not step in.

right from the start when cm, his bro n me were in his car, on the way to suntec, there was aleadi a huge jam.. like whole of amk gg to suntec lidat.. den we tot better park shaw tower, shd have more space, but it was full! cannot even go in.. suntec even no need to think.. carpark full too. now it feels like whole of singapore is down at suntec!!! haiz.. so we parked at millenia. then we walked over to the convention halls.. gosh.. so many ppl... from far, everyone seemed to be moving in slow motion.. that is because they really are!! everyone was juz inching forward bit by bit..

so we went in.. me with a bit of hesitation.. afraid of crowds!! as wad i expected, it was super squeezy.. everyone bumping into each other to get pass.. the air was stale and stuffy.. brochures flying everywhere.. we wanted to cover the most of it, so we started walking along the aisles.. like nv ending lidat... so many rows of stalls!! sigh. den still got uupstairs somemore... so we walked upstairs too.. gosh almost puke. n i was having serious cramps.. veri gan kor ah~~!! T_T

i saw some familiar faces there. 1st i saw weilin n her bf(whom they all call polar bear for reasons unknown to me..), haha, but she didnt see us. then we saw jb, cm's close fren, then i even saw the newscaster(correct spelling?) from ch8 news!! aiya newscasters oso need to buy cheap IT stuff ma.. so sua ku for wad right.. zzz...

i managed to buy the portable hardisk i came for.. 160gb for $109, samsung brand.. not bad right? cm bot 100 pcs of dvd-r discs... his bro didnt buy anything in the end. sigh wad a day.. all of us were so tired after the whole thing, legs oso painful due to awkward walking n being stepped on by others... i tell u one father even rolled his baby pram over my feet lo! dat was the best...

nv wanna go there again!!! T_T

viewty

2008-03-04T22:00:00.000+08:00

juz got myself a new phone today.. as cm was getting a new contract under singtel.. n he aleadi used my sis's contract to buy a new phone.. so i used his to buy a phone.. den when my sis wans to buy she'll use mine haha so confusing.. anywayz.. the phone that both of us bought is LG's Viewty..
it's a very nice phone.. with a 5megapixel camera.. and it's a touch screen phone wif lots of cool features.. but right now, it looks pretty daunting to me.. too many new features! i dunno how to use them.. sobs sobs.. i'm a lazy person who likes to stick to familiar phones.. have been using sony ericsson since when sony and ericsson weren't the same phone name.. until now.. suddenly change phone brand.. not used to it!!! *cries* nvm.. hope i'll get used to it soon! :)

it's tuesday aleadi. whenever it's wednesday i'll feel like time is passing by realli fast.. mid week aleadi~!

random thots: u realli cant trust anyone at work.. can't tell who is truthful and who isn't.. sigh why is the world this way?

i wanna be an ice-cream seller..

2008-03-02T22:41:00.000+08:00

wad a weekend...
fri nite after work, went wif cm n xiang to nus for a guest lecture by Prof Bell Burnbell or smthg, the topic was Neutron stars, in pursuit of pulsar. she is the person who discovered neutron stars, and she's also the one who came up with the name Pulsar! dat alone impressed me a lot!! she gave a very interesting talk abt pulsar, and also did some daring demostrations. i said daring bcuz for her age, i think it was quite a bold move. imagine a 70 plus old lady swinging a kitchen clock around her head like a lasso, trying to show u that as it goes away from you, the beeping gets slower. throughout the whole demo i was more afraid for her in case she hits herself! lol.. and then she starting spinning herself around on-the-spot, trying to show the spinning of the stars. aiyo.. so worried for her! lolz

after the lec, we went to eat dinner.. den went for the star gazing session.. no stars at all de... onli see clouds.. sianz. then cm's frens who wanted to meet dat nite all couldn't make it till 10pm.. poor cm had not slept much due to rushing of assignment n project.. so we went home in the end. his fren got a bit upset, but i think if she is a real fren, she would be more concerned abt him getting rest instead.

then sat morning i went back to sch for duty.. crazy day.. 1st it was raining heavily.. then lots of ppl came for the FFTH stuff, so i carried bags of rice until my shoulders are so sore now.. ouch... then Dr Chua came in n gave me 2 tix to NUS Harmonica Orchestra's concert, Soiree.

Taken from NUSHO website:

so nice of him! so dat nite, me n cm went lo.. they were mostly very good.. the solo pieces were all fantastic too! 1st time watching a harmonica concert and it is really pleasantly surprisingly enjoyable! all except for one girl who was hitting the tamborine and shaker.. she was not following the whole orchestra throughout the concert!! she didn't even keep to the basic beat.. of cuz i'm not a music expert myself. if i were performing i cant say i would not make mistake. but i feel that she shd have tried harder! it was especially obvious when they were playing the song "Under the sea" from Little Mermaid.. the shaker's supposed to give that relaxed feeling.. like u r really at the seaside.. but she was totally off-beat!! the beat was just the most basic beat of "one-two-three-four".. know wad i mean? but she was totally in her own world, shaking her own beat.. throughout the whole song!!! really drag the whole orchestra down. cuz the rest were playing very hard and they sounded great! she spoilt the whole song, the whole concert and my whole evening!! !#$%!! either they need to find someone who is more serious or she really need to think abt wad she had done.. i feel.. i can see the orchestra was putting in a lot of effort. she shd respect them! even tho juz playing the tambourine and the shakers may seem like just an unimportant minor task, but it matters a lot to the songs! if played well, the song will become more lively.. but now not onli does it spoils the song, she also confused her own team members.. the one hitting the drum was confused by her beat.. or her off-beat.. that he had to pause several times to regain the proper rhythm.. if she makes mistakes in between the songs, i'm sure it will be fine.. no one will notice.. but she was off through the whole0 concert... realli got nthg to say..

but if i ignore wad she had done, the concert was really great.. the guest performer Mr Yasuo Watani (if i'm not wrong) may be quite old, but certainly no lacking in his energy n techniques when he blows the harmonica... really impressive performance.. i think the ticket price is charged too low, becuz he is really dat good. he shd be in esplanade, having his own concert n selling tix for $100++.. yep dats how good he is!! my new idol!!

den our sch's kids also put up a perf.. not bad la.. they played very well.. but their instruments sure lose out when compared to nus one.. haha..

then today went to PAYCO's concert at esplanade. it was another wonderful concert.. 1st few songs were quite western, but very very nice.. those by Ky were fantastic!! veri nice!! so proud to be from the same jc n alumni as him! all the songs were very nice.. some of the songs were quite contemporary.. or it sounds so to me la.. but they manage to play it very naturally.. very beautiful.. realli had a great concert..

(Taken from Esplanade website)

ok end of weekend, tml is go back to office!! jiayou jiayou to 12 mar!! it's coming..!! XD